-just 'a' random thoughts-

Monday, June 04, 2012

Weather killing me!

天气闷热的宁我想睡也不能睡。 确让我想起了你。。。 最近无意从朋友口中听到你的名字, 不仅让我又想起心底种种的回忆。 ---- 希望你一切都好。 "还是要幸福喔!" Ps: Sorry.

Monday, January 09, 2012

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哭一哭应该就没事了吧。。。

真的累了。
压力逼的喘不够气。

我只想要一个 '自己' 的空间,真的那么难吗?

叹!

Monday, December 05, 2011

TGIF?!?!?!

super tire...
but there's seems to be so many things i have yet to complete or done. just dont feel like closing my eyes and then wake up is time to go for work AGAIN! :'(
another week..
weekend not enough!!!

-gosh. last night I actually dreamt of uhem. it turn out to be a scary one though. but in the end still make me feel so 内疚 Aiyah.
just realize there's actually quite a number of people DOB is around this corner. but I simply store bf birth date in my brain and I had forgotten the rest. sorry lar! memorises falling off.. lol.!

loving is not easy.
accepting each others faults is even harder.
its take alot of communicating : arguments.
learn to care. learn to understand.
你对我的好,我都放在心里。
here I am missing you...
想你∙•∙

ps: cramps acting up again! I want take MC!!!
unfortunately I only left with 3 days.... *CRYsss*

Friday, June 03, 2011

mood for jot.

i'm in the mood to blog today~! whee whee. 8)
just that i dont know what to write, actually.

nothing really much change.
things are still the same.
same job. same life..

still with the same thoughts of changing a new job and a new environment.
hate to admit i dont like changes. thats why im still there..stuck with that old place that i dont really wants. for 2years..yar. its 2years.
but i really need to leave. for a better prospect. i had learnt what i need. i have gain more than i had thought of. time to move on.. time to learn more..
for the goodness of the money. i'll stick with it or a few more months.
舍不得,可是真的累了。。

anyway, topping up some spice and sweetness,
I'm gonna for holiday 'again' soon!!!
batam! bangkok! IM COMING!
JULY come fast please..
how i hope that now is july3rd and not june3rd. =(

boyfriend change his job, lesser meeting up. practically is just once a week. good or bad, hard to say. 也许也是好的呢?...we will get to appreciate each other more..

time to sleep time to sleep..
having insomnia i guess thats what it called.
im super tire. eyes are closing yet mind are running like in a race...
zzZzZzzzZ

good rest!

*seriously i didnt expect anyone will read! thanks for comments and deeply appreciated it! with loves!
^-^

Friday, March 04, 2011

0.0 it's still alive!

Hahaha! It's still alive! It's seems like years I hasnt post any thing. Practically I had actually forgotten my own blog link & futhermore the template is in a mess!. Hah. :S

anyway just a short update update post! :)

Yar!! I'm still working at that same old place. Nothing seems to be better. 走的走了。it's Only left with that few..or I should say the auntiessss As usual of the tiring and sickening life. But still have to be blissful with those nice, super nice people. They can really makes my day. :D
Time for a new job. But what should I do??? Millions of question marks flooding ..

I know.. Studies is out of the question. So so so so.. -想想想-

Last last last..I'm in love anyway. Not the perfect guy nor the best. It's being a year and I know we are still trying to work things out.
Hopefully will be in a good way. To be frank, I don't know... :x time will bring us to an answers..

Alright. Gotten sleep. Nightmare coming this whole month!!!!
Plus my 2 littles one are giving me headaches! Nightmares! Madness! Toooooo!.!.!.

Monday, January 11, 2010

whole lot of shits

I hate my job to the core core core..!!!!~
whenever i had to run this out-of-no-where clinic.
hell lots of pts from morning all the way till noon.
hell lots of complains and complains. nothing but complains.
i had to apologise for nothing???!!
things which is not my fault at all.
things which are no in my control.
be nice im at fault!
be evil im at fault!!
u are early im at fault!!!
u are late im at fault!!!
for god sake.
it really hell!!!!
people are just "xu wei"!
outside tt door, questions and shout madly.
inside tt room, talk and speak like a mouse!
wth~!
i just feel like crying out~!
shout out loud~!

why cant they just "jiang xin bi xin".

i hate my job!!! roarrrrr!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

thinking thinking thinking.

why wasnt i born earlier??? =(((

crush crush crush!


in a huge dilemma. i wanna to run yet once i run i will miss, think, ponder..
ahhhhh. crushcrushcrush.

Sunday, January 03, 2010

new year. new start.

IT's 2010~!!!

but i dont have a good start~! =(
i fall sick..
being sick for these 3days, somehow or so, i wish that i will be sick till tml as well~!
there's goes my holidays and leaves..
didnt get to enjoy and play much, cos im sick...
my back, hip, legs, arms, shoulders, everywhere its aching~!!!

anyway, i finally when for my perm.
its a long wait for my hair to grow long.
its a huge courage for me to curl it up.
its looks okie okie..but but.. as what others said, it troublesome and my hair are DRYyyy..
:(( lots of hard works to repair back..

bad feeling..
hope that this year will be a year of 先苦后甜。。
cos im really not feel good.
**feel like vomiting~!**
**heavy head**

Thursday, December 24, 2009

i'm a good girl!!!

i'm back at work..
Should i go for another round today????
the feeling is there..
but jun is not free. =(((
so sadddd!!!

wonder,ponders.

Omg!!! i'm actually thinking of that shy cute hot guy now!! Lol. **he's nice lar. Haha...**

but.but.but. overall its just a few mins/hours dance..
byeee. don't think we will meet again. mayb we can't even recognize each other even we meet..

Hahs..nights & farewell shy hot cute guy!!

ps: i had a great night. enjoy myself much, though i'm tire and my feet hurt big time!! *'•'*

Sunday, December 13, 2009

sweat OUT.

being sweating out lot these few days from packing to washing to TEAM BUILDING~!
when it comes to team building, fun will never ever comes to my mind. but surprisingly, i'm kinda of enjoying it well with all of them esp with the other 2 darlings, jun & meizhi. of course, putting aside that little hiccups **eyes roll. not to mention.** though without doctors attending, guess 99% of us had great fun and enjoy ourselves. photo taking sessions will never be miss!~ hahaha. its being so long i sweat out lots. being in the air-con rooms for too long~!

while i realised that i recently had a great huge urge to spend spend spend & still spend.
being spending alot on foods?! clothes?! bags!? cab!? whatever more that i can buy buy buy with that kacha..!!
just imagine, i just brought myself a crumpler sling bag which is like out of no where???!! hahaha.
while due to the team building, i brought myself different different types of sport wear??! **Cos i though doctors will be there. but still in the end, i ended up with just t and shorts, nothing fanciful and doctors are not there.**

anyway anyway.. its 6 more days!!!!! whoo hoo. pray hard my maths dont fail me out! LOL. more kacha will be coming????!!!! hahahaha.

other then that, i realised i can actually do quite a number of things without depending on my lazy late home brother~! might be b'cos of so, i got to do all by myself!
i realised i'm actually quite STRONG.
i realised that i can actually fix the INTERNET CONNECTION.
i realised and i realised..realised...realised...

anyway anyway anyway...
im kinda of hungry!!

ps: Looking for foods.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

how i wish.

=D

its being so long ago that i had such a peacefully morning~!!
no arguments with patients.
no explanation.
no checking of bloods.
no booking of appointments.
no no no no no no NO!!

wahahahaha.
how i wish every morning its so relaxing.
I LOVE TOPPING UP FORMSssss~!!
future more,piglet's best friend is on leave.
wahahaha.
what more can i ask for this morning~!

I'm On P.H. L.E.A.V.E tml~!!!
REJOY~!!

ps: i'm just too bored. :x
afternoon please be a good one. **pray hard**

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

error!

my blog is dead again..
all my codes are gone..!!!
sadded~!!
i need to re-do every single one. grrr.
just because of my itchy fingers of changing the blog song and in the end all are GONE!!!

whatever~!!! ~!@#$%

ps: boring job. boring work. i wanna go home.

letting go.
guess thats the feeling..
when supposing it should be an aim a dream for "us" but now it became and is completed by "you&her"..
that is when its time to let go..
eveything.. everything..

Thursday, November 12, 2009

yo how are you???

letting out my anger...
anyway. just bark off and get yourselves lost in the jungle. you are just like your dad. sorry to say so that way but is you who make it that way. continue to be/acting that big fat nice guy of you. i had really really see through you. im just that jia zhen now or way before now, at the start....
poooo.. i look/sound stupid. as if you ever read..
forget is the only way to forgive. i will. is only that 0.001 left.
cheyyy.

Sunday, November 08, 2009

good or bad.

literally, i hurt someone i guess... =/
its wasnt meant to be that way butt butt. with my this 'character' things just goes haywire.. i feel kinda of bad about it.
i'm just sorry.. :|


__but just cant really blame me. i just feel that we are two very different world apart and furthermore i just dont like that kind of feeling whereby you dont have your own stand and idea. asking friends to stand up for you. speaking up for you is not what i like about. cos i know it myself im a 大女人主义者!! i just cant stand.. :s and its just a number (which normally how do one ask for number?? he didnt even take out his phone lar!! or paper?? how should i give man! of course my asking will be wait lar! & we are working!!!.. anyway, it just give me a feeling of 'someone'..i dont mind being FRIEND. but i dont know.. maybe im just think too deep in it. =x i dont want to admit or jump into it. but it just give me that "feeling", that "situation" that i once had.. not mentioning its a good or bad one.__
however i got to say thanks as well. :D
as due to all these teases and fun. jokes and talks, i actually for that moment. that evening, all my worries and sadness fade off, without me ever knowing..maybe that's the reason why i felt so guilty/ bad about it. he's a nice guy..~ =\ anyway, what's gonna happen no one will know. 未来是未知地! be it families or friends.

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h.o.m.e is going haywiress again. hate it to the core~!! ~!@$

Monday, November 02, 2009

thoughts.

arrrrhhhh~!!!
i droppp my phonee twice in a rowwww~!!!!
=((((

gotten give a real good thought of what i really wanna to do.
work or study??
eve will be leaving soon.
jun will be soon leaving too.
both my so called gaki are leaving..
seriously things ain't getting any better.
without any gaki to buck up and "gang" up in this you eat me i eat you environment, i might sooner or later be a new nero pt..
thought i might be quite a loner. buttt buttt..
its saddd.

going back to school choice is only if i had the money..
getting a degree?? which is like whats everyone around me doing..
im not those study hardwork girl type but i guess this is what peer pressure meant. which actually makes me feel like going back. or im somehow sick of ft work job.
i dont know what course to take up.
i dont know what school to attend.
i dont know anything.
i dont have a P.L.A.N..
seriously!
yeahhh i dont have a P.L.A.N.
i dont have a high paid job.
i dont have a good ideal job.
i haven done with my driving lesson.
i haven settle my bills and endless of bills..
i haven go for a holi.
i haven i haven..
and worse i dont have a compatible partner!!!
**goshhhh**
guess i'll be a 败犬 in 10yrs times???
i know i know i know..
im thinking way too far again..
but but..yeahh. time flies.. saw/work elton on sat and without him mentioning, yarr its being 3yrs seen we met. when we (calvin,hs,ron,wq,mid,sharona,des,me) were still in our 10s..LOL.these 3yrs passed real fast. everything seem to be different..or it is different.

anyway!!!!
lets hope and pray real hard~!!!
i will win the 4thnov09 BIG SWEEP~!!!
wahahahaha.
& i dont have to think so much~!
isn't that c.o.o.l!!!!
$.$

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

alone



today's advice "spend your time alone"
=…=" indeed i had...
for dont know what-so-ever reason why, now im actually laying flat on my bed bloggerin where suppose to be enjoyin, k'in & movie'in.. cos I'M ON LEAVE TOMORROW!!!!
butt, sadded to say..im down,with very bad rash on my FACE &.. a sudden bad tummy ach.. all plans have to cancel..rest rest rest..lay lay lay is all i need..

i wanna get my life back.

ps: goin to give my dear bro a good talk tonight...i cant stand it anymore...!!! WAKE UPPP@!

phew~!

hahahahhahaha~!!!
wahahahahahaha~~~~!!!!
its such a relief.!
heehee. xD

Friday, October 09, 2009

hardwork.

coffee is all i need~!
regardless of how bad my caffeine tolerance can be. but i need it~!

being working rather hard these few days or i should use weeks to describe. haaha.
being working working and working.
kor side is no longer as easy as i used to be. different environment different working situation.
& i really hate CHINESE wedding!!!
all the part. the presentation where we got to Q from the shortest to the tallest, holding that BIg first dish to the respective table then to the klap'in and dividing of the foods (which im totally nuts at that) and worst.. the cutting of the fish with just spoon and fork~!!!
omg~!! i just HATE chinese wedding..
please please everyone just goes western...LOL
while..my ta li shi arm strength is no longer there! i cant really hold lots and longg.. =((
i just need more ppl to S.A.V.E me! haahaa.

ft is still as usual complex. more and more hours to be claim.. days of leave waiting for me to take!
anyway..how i wish i got to run pancake clinic everyday!!! hahahahaha~! xD
though he's mood swing come and goes.. guess i really had a huge crush on him??? LOL. he had what im looking for!!! LOL. just that he's too old!!! hmmmmmeeeerrr...
whatever larrr!!!! hahaha.
guess everything going smooth.. just that im too tire to concentrate i guess. keep making mistake that i didnt even realise. hopefully nothing b.i.g gonna happen..haix. so coffee and milo is the magic of my life now~!
how i wish there's a starbuck or coffee bean right outside H. hahahaha. but nope..only my 3in1 waiting for me...anyway..its better than nothing..

got to work tml again..got to log off soon.. im soo into naruto!! hahaha. being watching watching.. two more esps and off to slp~! xD


ps: i didnt know my value at tagger can goes up to 15k plus plus. which i totally hasnt being touching since dunno when..hahaha. (info provided by my kor who wanted to buy me!! hahaha. too bad!)

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

at this timing???

Peeeek--Boooo..

its being so long since the last time i had blogg.
its either im too busy running about, or im just too lazy to on my lappy.
kinda of lost touch to the Internet world of .com .com .com.
misses my games.
misses my taiwan drama series~!

anyway, everything goes the same.
working sound the same. but i had seems to create a 'hack care' attitude.
i 'cant be bother' much. do whats im suppose to do and THATS it!
hahs. guess thats the only/best way to survival through..
house.
hopefully another luck will happen. cause we just missed one whom it real cheap and worth the price. but not to blame on anyy. its all about FATE!!
one that is really for us will come soon!! =)
the only matter that cause my serious hairs fall is no others but LOH TIAO TIAO.!!!
he's as usual the naughtiest boy~! "or i should say, it getting W.O.R.S.T"!!
save me! guess i really need to get myself a " how to be a successful dog trainer" book to train my loh tiaotiao.
both my kor and i are really lost in teaching him, asking him to do and dont!
he's really driving us nut. moreover, im kinda of busy and tire. yet after a long day back, i need to do this pack that, clear this clean that. its real tiring..
anyway, perhaps or so, guess i should really walk around boarder to get a cheap yet effective dog book. ('~')
moneyy.
i really need to S.A.V.E!!!
i had overspent once again. and today is only the 9th!!! how am i going to survival through till the 25th. =(( *sadded** money money money money... is never enough~!

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guess wonders and questions mark will pops out asking why am i sooo the you kong now in blogs hopping and updating my "untouched" blog. cos im really FREE~~!!! being earning easy money for these few morning! hahaas.
i had to admit, sometime this job is really simple and nice. but sometime, it will just simply make me crazyyy.
thinking back, i had actually wan cheng one of my little ambition of being a clinical assitiant of booking appointment. LOLs. when i was young i do wish to become one whenever i visit the gp doctors. hahaha. see them chopping and writing the appt time and date on the cards look fun and simple to me~! hahaha. * i had actually tried it at home playing!* guess real world is really different from what we see.
hahahas.

ending. photos to be uploaded soon. tons tons of photos to be uploaded. heehee.
time to go poopoo. * ^-' *

im just plain lazyy. =x