-just 'a' random thoughts-

Thursday, March 20, 2008

'0.0'

i'm awake!!!
yar~~
i can't sleep...
my eyes are wide opening!!!
arh~ i had not being sleeping well this few days...
i can't sleep and .. i'm feeling rather energized ...
wahahaha...

my back itch and i dunno why...grrrr...
and...as usual am tt paranoid, thinking thr's smth bitting mi...
wahahahaa...
or..
maybe is my hair tt's growing longer tt fall and itch mi??? **scratch scratch**

--i'm gg to cut my hair soon!!!!--


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thr's smth missing in us.
and ''i guess''...
you dun seems to know wads tt...
while i really hope tt you know and...
i really dunno. is our surrounding that is changing us or, we ourselves are really changing.
i find tt you had change, you find tt i had change. and, hah, we ourselves dun realised tt. ..
hmmm.haix. i really dunno.

what i'm waiting for don't seems to come true...
missing the past...

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

=)

was chatting to vin just now and..
tadtah..
he show mi this real interesting website tt he had brought for his gf..
here's the link.
nice!!!

http://www.thekiss.co.jp/online/pairring2.htm

feel free to browers ard. cos the things in thr are real real nice!!!!!
=)

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

~.~

maybe...
perhaps...
i dunno...

Monday, March 17, 2008

ended.

guess, i will never expect you to actually say break up. I had being telling myself, as long as you say break, i will go according to it. cos, tt's also meant tt, i, have no longer any more point of holding on to it. the biggest reason i have hold on till it now is because i know you are really true towards me and give me all the trust and support even though i might be unreasonable at time. you will be still there, loving me, as who i am. the love you had given me, putting me as the top, makes me wonder that if i let go, will i be able to find another one that treat me tt well. since, you no longer so, i had no more reason to hold on to you. it just like holding to an empty shell. without knowing, yar, i had deeply fallen for you though i kept complaining and comparing and even regrated in going in this relationship. if not, i wun be crying now. no doubt, i'm really dissappointed in you. but, does tt really matter now? all my guessing or i can say feeling are right. though you deny it at first. the most aching part is not you dun love me tt much,but, is that, you actually compare the 'give' you had done in the relationship with mine. yar, true, i did complain tt you are not doing enuff. but, i didn't say things like you did not put in the effort. not matter what, i still wear, use them. i didn't comapre with what i had done just for this relationship. maybe to you, the 'giving' i had is not enuff to compare and not even a single sense to you bah. effort??? i guess i really didn't put in tt 'much'. hah. the other heartbreaking things that makes my mind set tt we are never to be again is tt, we had being arguing over and over again the same old point and view. but in the end, you dun seems or yar, you dun get wad i mean. our communication fail. but wad you tell me is, i had change, the trust and understanding in you for me is fail cause i had change. at the same time, do you know that the trust and understanding i had in you is also falling. and everytime, i mes you all those messages are just hoping that we can get a conclusion, a solution to make it better. but however, you don't see it that way. all along, i had being saying, 'complaining' this and tt to you. hoping tt i will get a better you, a better you that will understanding me more. at least the basic of what i like and what i think. And at the sametime, i hope to know you better. what you are really doing. but i guess our understanding really had reach the max. no matter how i explain to you that it fail, hoping to be better, doesn't seems to get a single point over to you.i guess you really dun understand me well enuff. i'm not a gal who will say every single thing out. love, does tt mean i need to put it in my mouth always? trust, do i have to keep saying?whatever it is, it's no longer important. today, yes, today, i will give my best to cried all out. forgetting. the sixth sense in gals, true enuff it's very true. the hug i get from you, the look, the.. feeling. i will be okie. a few more days rest. just give me few more days. i will be okie...

Sunday, March 16, 2008

changes in my life again....
hmmm.
good or bad i still have to face it.
=]
...............

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

=)

walalalala.

my wish come true!

i got this!!!


thx kor for giving mi $150!
thx dear for $90!
and tadah!!!..
i onli paid $100~~~
wahahaha.

love it!
trying to figure how to play tot =s

Sunday, February 17, 2008

please leave your message after the tone...

i'm dropping dead once again. hah.
i slept at 4? and i cant pull myself to work [z00]...
and my legs are aching!!!!
the sic is not helping by switching on tt ..phone...
and in the end they will be barking at you for nt calling and informing them.
..dots...
but, anyway.. last nite i did had fun =)

Thursday, February 14, 2008

as if u care.

guess u are asleep now le bah.
a few msg a day.
asking the same old things...
"wake up le""whr are u"
in a single day not a single call.
and of course, dun say abt meet up.
just msg mi tt you had being promoted as an asst. manager.
should i be happy or not??
just a simple msg tt wrote. hee happy first Valentine's Day.
Should i be content or not???
dun think u ever remb today is vd till ytd afternoon???
and u expect mi of actually waiting for???
which i can jolly well see tt i wun be enjoying at all. it onli give me a feeling of because it is so,so to do it and not frm the heart. furthermore, will you be able to make it??? with your tt at least 13-14 hours of working hours, i dun think so. hah.
it's really just a waste for my time...
have you ever tot of planning for the day...
our first vd...
even you tell me to wait for u for just a simple dinner at the kopitam, i will still will.
but..
it's all too late.
and i dun see wad a nice dinner it will be at the last min.
what i can see is..
you didn't.
i dun see the sincerity.
what a memorable first vd...
you achieve what you want.
but.
i guess u didn't get my understanding at all....
and of course, literally you are lossing me.
can someone just tell mi.
am i at the wrong..
am i not standing 'close' by him side.
am i asking too much...
or..
i should be more understanding...
support he in his works.
i should had...
i should had....
had i being asking too much or...
had i being not doing enough.
maybe. tt very long ago, i already dun really love u tt much ..maybe tt's the reason why i can't pull thr this with u. i can't understand your work, your every single thing... and not even feelin a single happy tt u are RICH!!!
how can the world be a couple like us that call oursleves couple.hah.
basic understanding and communication is not thr at all.
our minds are not connected. what more about our heart.
while for u. you got what u had. money and state. isn't tt good. hah.
as what i had said . i'm just draging it. keep telling myself yar. he will turn back do a little changes. but too bad. what's gone is gone.everythings just look and sound so diff. when i just know you, the first few months together and coming to a year. it's seems really long and draggy. i didn't really expect things to turn out tt bad for barely a year for us. i just can't really imagine how 2 years, 3 years, or even 50 years ltr will be like.my wonders are not wrg tot. maybe we are not meant to be together at all. it's fading away...i'm envying every single couple tt i know or even those stranger out thr.. but not myself. remb last yr as a outsider or stanger, i actually felt the xin fu from all the ladies i had serve. vd, all gals are xin fu de. while, it's just not for me this time round.hah. one day just one day the drag will worn out..it's when it's stop.everythings will be ok. i will be fine.

.

how i wish thr isn't 14 in this mth....

how long can this still hold and drag.
getting all those things look and feel so ...
wasted...


so how i seems to know what this song meant.

photos.

---cny.. ----


It's New year!!!! =)


Our dinner.. look at the cheese... yummyyyyy....


majong!!!!


=)

pretty pretty rite....cos it's taken by by...me!!! wahaha


ugly mi....


hardly met up friends.
happy new year!!! :)

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12-02-08 tue

Destination: 500 plus


In the bus wif cin.

orchard: indochin.



````````````````tiff and ven``````````````````



``````````cin.````````````


All About Me!!!! blehx...


Orchard Station: Catching the last train...





pic 1: she's not ready....
pic 2: tadah..
pic 3: it's me again!!! wahahaha~~


Train: on our way back...HOME!!!





SAY WE ARE PRETTY!!! wahahaahha~~~

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thx gals... i did enjoy myself well well... :)
looking forward for our next shopping trip!!!

Tat day outfit... tadah!!!

one day...

i'm still saving for ...
-->


Sunday, February 10, 2008

nike LOH tia tia..."jump jump"



interesting!!!



Ring-tailed Lemurs
Date of Birth: 28 April 2005
Sex: Male
Father: Ike
Mother: Flossie

wahaha... i was visiting the zoo website and found out tt...this baby was on the same birthday as me!!! maybe we could celebrate together???? wahahaha~~~~

=s

grr..
i think i'm falling sick soon....

i'm OLD!!!!

staying up this few days and waking up as an early bird doesnt seems to help....
i have a kinda of feeling tt i be sick soooonnn...
i'm feeling sooo cold now. =(

but get to enjoy myself for the past few days. no too bad! and i must be proud of myself. indeed all those late night, i still manage to wake up and off to work tot, yarrr, both days i took cab thr whr almost dry me up!!!!....but, neverthless, due to the double pay and the ang bao given by the company..i feel less pain....wahahahahaha~~~


awaiting for lots of photoxxx~~~

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AH MENG (1960 - 2008)

tot i dun really recongise her, it still a pity for her leave..

Thursday, February 07, 2008

=)

forgetting all that...
i still want to wish those tt i love and love me!!!!


Happy Chinese New Year!!!!!

whooooo..... it's time to grab ang bao lor...!!!

wahahahahaha

what are friends for???

are all tt really my friends???
maybe to them, that's what friends are and meant.
it's really tt hard to meet just a evening for a dinner or even a chat and coffee. maybe we are just too busy yar...suddenly became so hardworking tot.
what REAL friends i had!!! hah. i must be happy with it yar!!!!

when reality strike.

Friday, January 25, 2008

time machine

envy...
envy those on the street...
on the train...
ard me..
everywhere....

我也不想这样。。。
我应该是要体谅你的。
我应该是要了解的。。。
我。。。
我。。
就是做不到。。

Saturday, January 19, 2008

=)

two more weeks to go for my HOLIDAYS!!!!!!
hang on~~~~

I want go toilet!!!!!
peeeeeee~~~~~

just another random post!!!! wahahaha