whole lot of shits

I hate my job to the core core core..!!!!~
whenever i had to run this out-of-no-where clinic.
hell lots of pts from morning all the way till noon.
hell lots of complains and complains. nothing but complains.
i had to apologise for nothing???!!
things which is not my fault at all.
things which are no in my control.
be nice im at fault!
be evil im at fault!!
u are early im at fault!!!
u are late im at fault!!!
for god sake.
it really hell!!!!
people are just "xu wei"!
outside tt door, questions and shout madly.
inside tt room, talk and speak like a mouse!
wth~!
i just feel like crying out~!
shout out loud~!

why cant they just "jiang xin bi xin".

i hate my job!!! roarrrrr!

thinking thinking thinking.

why wasnt i born earlier??? =(((

crush crush crush!


in a huge dilemma. i wanna to run yet once i run i will miss, think, ponder..
ahhhhh. crushcrushcrush.

new year. new start.

IT's 2010~!!!

but i dont have a good start~! =(
i fall sick..
being sick for these 3days, somehow or so, i wish that i will be sick till tml as well~!
there's goes my holidays and leaves..
didnt get to enjoy and play much, cos im sick...
my back, hip, legs, arms, shoulders, everywhere its aching~!!!

anyway, i finally when for my perm.
its a long wait for my hair to grow long.
its a huge courage for me to curl it up.
its looks okie okie..but but.. as what others said, it troublesome and my hair are DRYyyy..
:(( lots of hard works to repair back..

bad feeling..
hope that this year will be a year of 先苦后甜。。
cos im really not feel good.
**feel like vomiting~!**
**heavy head**

i'm a good girl!!!

i'm back at work..
Should i go for another round today????
the feeling is there..
but jun is not free. =(((
so sadddd!!!

wonder,ponders.

Omg!!! i'm actually thinking of that shy cute hot guy now!! Lol. **he's nice lar. Haha...**

but.but.but. overall its just a few mins/hours dance..
byeee. don't think we will meet again. mayb we can't even recognize each other even we meet..

Hahs..nights & farewell shy hot cute guy!!

ps: i had a great night. enjoy myself much, though i'm tire and my feet hurt big time!! *'•'*

sweat OUT.

being sweating out lot these few days from packing to washing to TEAM BUILDING~!
when it comes to team building, fun will never ever comes to my mind. but surprisingly, i'm kinda of enjoying it well with all of them esp with the other 2 darlings, jun & meizhi. of course, putting aside that little hiccups **eyes roll. not to mention.** though without doctors attending, guess 99% of us had great fun and enjoy ourselves. photo taking sessions will never be miss!~ hahaha. its being so long i sweat out lots. being in the air-con rooms for too long~!

while i realised that i recently had a great huge urge to spend spend spend & still spend.
being spending alot on foods?! clothes?! bags!? cab!? whatever more that i can buy buy buy with that kacha..!!
just imagine, i just brought myself a crumpler sling bag which is like out of no where???!! hahaha.
while due to the team building, i brought myself different different types of sport wear??! **Cos i though doctors will be there. but still in the end, i ended up with just t and shorts, nothing fanciful and doctors are not there.**

anyway anyway.. its 6 more days!!!!! whoo hoo. pray hard my maths dont fail me out! LOL. more kacha will be coming????!!!! hahahaha.

other then that, i realised i can actually do quite a number of things without depending on my lazy late home brother~! might be b'cos of so, i got to do all by myself!
i realised i'm actually quite STRONG.
i realised that i can actually fix the INTERNET CONNECTION.
i realised and i realised..realised...realised...

anyway anyway anyway...
im kinda of hungry!!

ps: Looking for foods.

how i wish.

=D

its being so long ago that i had such a peacefully morning~!!
no arguments with patients.
no explanation.
no checking of bloods.
no booking of appointments.
no no no no no no NO!!

wahahahaha.
how i wish every morning its so relaxing.
I LOVE TOPPING UP FORMSssss~!!
future more,piglet's best friend is on leave.
wahahaha.
what more can i ask for this morning~!

I'm On P.H. L.E.A.V.E tml~!!!
REJOY~!!

ps: i'm just too bored. :x
afternoon please be a good one. **pray hard**

error!

my blog is dead again..
all my codes are gone..!!!
sadded~!!
i need to re-do every single one. grrr.
just because of my itchy fingers of changing the blog song and in the end all are GONE!!!

whatever~!!! ~!@#$%

ps: boring job. boring work. i wanna go home.

letting go.

guess thats the feeling..

when supposing it should be an aim a dream for "us" but now it became and is completed by "you&her"..

that is when its time to let go..

eveything.. everything..

yo how are you???

letting out my anger...
anyway. just bark off and get yourselves lost in the jungle. you are just like your dad. sorry to say so that way but is you who make it that way. continue to be/acting that big fat nice guy of you. i had really really see through you. im just that jia zhen now or way before now, at the start....
poooo.. i look/sound stupid. as if you ever read..
forget is the only way to forgive. i will. is only that 0.001 left.
cheyyy.

good or bad.

literally, i hurt someone i guess... =/
its wasnt meant to be that way butt butt. with my this 'character' things just goes haywire.. i feel kinda of bad about it.
i'm just sorry.. :|

__but just cant really blame me. i just feel that we are two very different world apart and furthermore i just dont like that kind of feeling whereby you dont have your own stand and idea. asking friends to stand up for you. speaking up for you is not what i like about. cos i know it myself im a 大女人主义者!! i just cant stand.. :s and its just a number (which normally how do one ask for number?? he didnt even take out his phone lar!! or paper?? how should i give man! of course my asking will be wait lar! & we are working!!!.. anyway, it just give me a feeling of 'someone'..i dont mind being FRIEND. but i dont know.. maybe im just think too deep in it. =x i dont want to admit or jump into it. but it just give me that "feeling", that "situation" that i once had.. not mentioning its a good or bad one.__

however i got to say thanks as well. :D
as due to all these teases and fun. jokes and talks, i actually for that moment. that evening, all my worries and sadness fade off, without me ever knowing..maybe that's the reason why i felt so guilty/ bad about it. he's a nice guy..~ =\ anyway, what's gonna happen no one will know. 未来是未知地! be it families or friends.

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h.o.m.e is going haywiress again. hate it to the core~!! ~!@$

thoughts.

arrrrhhhh~!!!
i droppp my phonee twice in a rowwww~!!!!
=((((

gotten give a real good thought of what i really wanna to do.
work or study??
eve will be leaving soon.
jun will be soon leaving too.
both my so called gaki are leaving..
seriously things ain't getting any better.
without any gaki to buck up and "gang" up in this you eat me i eat you environment, i might sooner or later be a new nero pt..
thought i might be quite a loner. buttt buttt..
its saddd.

going back to school choice is only if i had the money..
getting a degree?? which is like whats everyone around me doing..
im not those study hardwork girl type but i guess this is what peer pressure meant. which actually makes me feel like going back. or im somehow sick of ft work job.
i dont know what course to take up.
i dont know what school to attend.
i dont know anything.
i dont have a P.L.A.N..
seriously!
yeahhh i dont have a P.L.A.N.
i dont have a high paid job.
i dont have a good ideal job.
i haven done with my driving lesson.
i haven settle my bills and endless of bills..
i haven go for a holi.
i haven i haven..
and worse i dont have a compatible partner!!!
**goshhhh**
guess i'll be a 败犬 in 10yrs times???
i know i know i know..
im thinking way too far again..
but but..yeahh. time flies.. saw/work elton on sat and without him mentioning, yarr its being 3yrs seen we met. when we (calvin,hs,ron,wq,mid,sharona,des,me) were still in our 10s..LOL.these 3yrs passed real fast. everything seem to be different..or it is different.

anyway!!!!
lets hope and pray real hard~!!!
i will win the 4thnov09 BIG SWEEP~!!!
wahahahaha.
& i dont have to think so much~!
isn't that c.o.o.l!!!!
$.$

alone

today's advice "spend your time alone"
=…=" indeed i had...
for dont know what-so-ever reason why, now im actually laying flat on my bed bloggerin where suppose to be enjoyin, k'in & movie'in.. cos I'M ON LEAVE TOMORROW!!!!
butt, sadded to say..im down,with very bad rash on my FACE &.. a sudden bad tummy ach.. all plans have to cancel..rest rest rest..lay lay lay is all i need..

i wanna get my life back.

ps: goin to give my dear bro a good talk tonight...i cant stand it anymore...!!! WAKE UPPP@!

phew~!

hahahahhahaha~!!!
wahahahahahaha~~~~!!!!
its such a relief.!
heehee. xD

hardwork.

coffee is all i need~!
regardless of how bad my caffeine tolerance can be. but i need it~!

being working rather hard these few days or i should use weeks to describe. haaha.
being working working and working.
kor side is no longer as easy as i used to be. different environment different working situation.
& i really hate CHINESE wedding!!!
all the part. the presentation where we got to Q from the shortest to the tallest, holding that BIg first dish to the respective table then to the klap'in and dividing of the foods (which im totally nuts at that) and worst.. the cutting of the fish with just spoon and fork~!!!
omg~!! i just HATE chinese wedding..
please please everyone just goes western...LOL
while..my ta li shi arm strength is no longer there! i cant really hold lots and longg.. =((
i just need more ppl to S.A.V.E me! haahaa.

ft is still as usual complex. more and more hours to be claim.. days of leave waiting for me to take!
anyway..how i wish i got to run pancake clinic everyday!!! hahahahaha~! xD
though he's mood swing come and goes.. guess i really had a huge crush on him??? LOL. he had what im looking for!!! LOL. just that he's too old!!! hmmmmmeeeerrr...
whatever larrr!!!! hahaha.
guess everything going smooth.. just that im too tire to concentrate i guess. keep making mistake that i didnt even realise. hopefully nothing b.i.g gonna happen..haix. so coffee and milo is the magic of my life now~!
how i wish there's a starbuck or coffee bean right outside H. hahahaha. but nope..only my 3in1 waiting for me...anyway..its better than nothing..

got to work tml again..got to log off soon.. im soo into naruto!! hahaha. being watching watching.. two more esps and off to slp~! xD


ps: i didnt know my value at tagger can goes up to 15k plus plus. which i totally hasnt being touching since dunno when..hahaha. (info provided by my kor who wanted to buy me!! hahaha. too bad!)

at this timing???

Peeeek--Boooo..

its being so long since the last time i had blogg.
its either im too busy running about, or im just too lazy to on my lappy.
kinda of lost touch to the Internet world of .com .com .com.
misses my games.
misses my taiwan drama series~!

anyway, everything goes the same.
working sound the same. but i had seems to create a 'hack care' attitude.
i 'cant be bother' much. do whats im suppose to do and THATS it!
hahs. guess thats the only/best way to survival through..
house.
hopefully another luck will happen. cause we just missed one whom it real cheap and worth the price. but not to blame on anyy. its all about FATE!!
one that is really for us will come soon!! =)
the only matter that cause my serious hairs fall is no others but LOH TIAO TIAO.!!!
he's as usual the naughtiest boy~! "or i should say, it getting W.O.R.S.T"!!
save me! guess i really need to get myself a " how to be a successful dog trainer" book to train my loh tiaotiao.
both my kor and i are really lost in teaching him, asking him to do and dont!
he's really driving us nut. moreover, im kinda of busy and tire. yet after a long day back, i need to do this pack that, clear this clean that. its real tiring..
anyway, perhaps or so, guess i should really walk around boarder to get a cheap yet effective dog book. ('~')
moneyy.
i really need to S.A.V.E!!!
i had overspent once again. and today is only the 9th!!! how am i going to survival through till the 25th. =(( *sadded** money money money money... is never enough~!

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guess wonders and questions mark will pops out asking why am i sooo the you kong now in blogs hopping and updating my "untouched" blog. cos im really FREE~~!!! being earning easy money for these few morning! hahaas.
i had to admit, sometime this job is really simple and nice. but sometime, it will just simply make me crazyyy.
thinking back, i had actually wan cheng one of my little ambition of being a clinical assitiant of booking appointment. LOLs. when i was young i do wish to become one whenever i visit the gp doctors. hahaha. see them chopping and writing the appt time and date on the cards look fun and simple to me~! hahaha. * i had actually tried it at home playing!* guess real world is really different from what we see.
hahahas.

ending. photos to be uploaded soon. tons tons of photos to be uploaded. heehee.
time to go poopoo. * ^-' *

im just plain lazyy. =x

save me.

stupid naughty LOH TIAO TIAO~~~~!!!

everythings seems to go on fine fine well..
but expect for stupid naughty LOH TIAO TIAO!
we are really out of no more ideas on how to deal with him~!
save me please!!!!
he actually pee on my HAND!!
omg!!

save me save me.
i really dunno what else can i do to LOH TIAO TIAO!!!

getting abit of tire.
getting abit of sickk..
or no no no!!!
it should be..

I'm REAL tire and sick!

everything around me seems to be driving my crazyyy..
esp when the feeling of telling myslef its NOT thinkany crazyy, its just make me goes crazyyy.

seriously, when is he goanna wake up.
he's just plain, what others say, good-for-nothing.
guess i had really enough of him..
he's just living in his world of,

wake up = wow.
hungry= open mouth for foods.
tired = sleep!
money = reach out from... YAN~!
and the best thing he could ever say: "when i get my pay.. when i start working.. when i.. when i.."

and these just goes for the cycle of all 7days.
how good life can tt be yarr..!

When is that "when I..." going to be???
& of course when will he be awake and realise that things doesnt really goes that way..
what he's being doing really are they 'ALOT' ???

i'm not a money tree..
nor do i earn big bucks.

if you wants to play, please jolly well make sure that you can PAY!
if you are a big eater, please make sure that you have enough cash to eat!

S.T.O.P depending on others!
how old are you??? gosh!

sad to say, what a family i had~!
im real tire!
i know i shouldnt be so bad or saying such bad things.
but the pressure and the tension around is really killing me.
im really trying my best.
but..one day, theres only 24hrs for me..
theres far far too many things for me to do and thinks..
i just really need a space of my own.
do and buy things for just the god sick of a 21 should be..
do i ever had the time to envy??
bad life..
& working for the sick of money is not any helping at all..

thanks girl~! ANG RUIYAN
=)))

really appericate it lots lots lots.
a phone call from me.
but many calls from her to others.

thanks my friend~


light shining down my path~!

black clouds over me

tire.
space.
moody.

understanding.
support.
shoulder.

tick tekk.

once again its another week~!
too much to consider too much to think.
hope time will move alittle slower..
26hrs is all i ask for???

its goanna be another hard week..
busy busy busy~!!!

theres still one whole load of list of shows for me to watch!!!
LOL.
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I hate my job!!
=((
i hate the feeling of ""opps did i done something wrg???"" ""i think i did something wrg""
its not a place where mistake can be make!
sometime or most of the time, i just hope that i can do things sharp sharp chop chop..
for the very first time i know its stressful.
i can feel the stress.
the internal people can really kills. moreover some are your friends..
what more can i say..

maybe i just dont suit the place..
i dont really like the situation that i in now.
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