***

a day with my papa. 12.06.08
acc my dad to wheelock place to repair his 30 years watch...
**0.o**
and the place was soooo uluuu...
as it's at the 8th floor..
however, wad we normally see at wheelock was only a 5 levels building...
searching for the lift to the 8th level was nt easy.. =((
we walk quite a big big big round...
and tt watch needed to be send back to swiss for 2 mth b4 we could know how much does the repair fee cost. grr tt's long man!

Chinatown next.
for our dinner, claypot rice!
but our fav sis's claypot rice didnt open.
tried a newly open one.
waited for like 45mins lar.
think they had forgotten our order le lor.
cos they aint tt busy!
=((
hmmm.
i still prefer the sis's cooking.
haha.

and just plain bored and tadah..
wahaha~~

My cute cute pa!


waiting~~


=( **hahaha**

i guess his tired.


lalala~~
it's mi!!!



i'm waiting waiting...
waiting for....

Ice Kachang

tadah..
yummy~~
this is the first time i ate all finish lar.
wahahaha~~

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Hair extensions.

5 of it...


tadah this is one of it...


with the hair clips at the top.
tt's how i clip it inbetween my hair de ar...
=)
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------
i could only force and restrict myself.
deep down..how i wish it wasnt true...
if u ever remb..
mi.
-----

not in the mood.

being scold fuck up by some idoit ppl it's so...
i dunno.
i be rather strong in my words..
i'm just simply very very piss off!

friend!
i'm have doubt by it too.
hah!

i was late today due to my accompany of 'at' being late.
but i didnt blame him as is mi who asked him to accompany mi to bg.
so in tt case i didnt went for the it training and so i decided nt to join this it show.
since i'm late, she's nt alone as she had her bro to accompany her.
and i think back to the last it show i work in.
ohhh!
tt's horrible lar.
i actually fall sick and this and tt de.
so i better stay at hm and rest since is my health is nt too gd this few days and school is starting next week.
and tt stupid fyp is nt gettting anyway yet!
tt friend she tot she has being sooo gd of.
didnt even ask wad happen to mi or so de.
since u ask mi wad shld u tell the person if i wasnt here,
thn i just jolly well tell u tt tell him i'm will nt be working thn!
and in the end.
i got a fuck up frm her.
wad the ****
as if she's alone or wad so ever.
u had ur bro wif u...
her pm: f*** up friend!
her pm:friend? nt yet.
hah.
thn i guess we will never be thn!
stay in ur market and sell ur fish!

---
hah.
another joke will be tt the most ironic things is tt.
she actually tot tt i went to do a search on her blog!
omg.
wad so gd abt ur blog tt i will search of u!
crazy mindset. is she who told mi the link but she actually tot tt ppl went to search for her blog.
omg!
-----

aniway. i might be thinking too much too.
whatever it is.
it's doesnt really matter much to mi thn.
not worth of being angry tt spoil my day!

=))

hope tt i didnt make the wrg decision.
i dunno~
...

------
isnt is a nice and beautiful song~
^-^
----

hmm.
if this songs is sang in a wedding it will be very very sweet and romatic!
hmm~

=s

i had my mcfuffy!!!
wahahaha~
yummy.

guess my stomach gonna give mi pblm again..
=((
**last night**
woke up in the middle of the night and running toilet.
thx to bo zai yin, i can haf a good slp.
woke up the morining wif an empty stomach.
guess i poo all out last night yar..
hahahaha.
ate nth much as my stomach still feel weird de.
but i just haf a caving for mcfuffy.
wahahaha

called mac and tadah..
my mcfuffy is here.
plus kor foods lar. since he watching soccer.
but...
hmmmm..
i feel smth weird in my stomach...
hmmm.
everything shld be ok when i wake up!

=))))

i want i want i want!!!!!

black or white oso can!!!!

i want i want!!!!

got to start saving!!!

i'm bored!

dunno why, i'm just so bored and cant get to slp!
online for quite sometime but!!! i'm not any single tired lar.
wahahaha.
i think i must be too "high" with my perm hair yar!
hahaha.
i'm still not a single tire.
and i'm really bored!
played some stupid games at y8.com
=s
bored to the extend reading peeps blogs. and they are all so sweet lar.
***envy envy envy***
did my online window shopping!
wahaha.
got to save up more yar!

i must really make use of this holiday!!!
tot it's a short one lar.
but i got to rest, slp, eat, play well!!!
lots of coding to do for my fyp. but who care!
my team mates seems to can complete it and with or without mi doesnt seems much diff lar.
so, stupid fyp wun ruin my holiday mood! yuppiiii!!!!
shopping.
movie.
k.
whatever~~
i'm free for it!!!

overall, i still hate fyp!
--
sleeping time!
dad is awake.
--
ohyar.
nths gonna to change.
i'm happy with wad i'm having now!
really wish and hope tt we could stick and stay to wad we have.
no matter how evil or how selfish they could be.
love them and hearts them lots!-really-
**tot i cant say them out face to face to you guys!***
perhaps tanglin hok we are moving back??

---
foods foods~~
i'm hungry!
---

=( -- =)

had a bad day!
``fyp meeting.``
so nt expecting much from it lar.
grrr.

but!
wahahaha.
smth really did brigthen up my day!!!
=) =) =)
went shop shop wif mich for the past few days.
did spend quite alot i can say!
hah...
and tahda~~
tt's one of the things we brought.
i shared with her de!
my dreams come true!
lalalala~~~


the short and long perm hair miii




-orrhhh orrhhhh. i'm just acting cute!-

-The back view-



Miss my long long hair!
how much longer will my hair grow???
=(
but at least i know how i look if i gg to do the perm.
*keke*

gg crazy!!!

fyp fyp fyp fyp!!!!
there's too many things we need to complete!!!!!

photo taking.
photo edit.
create into a video stream.
coding!!!!!

the coding is really killing mi!
thr's too many!!!!!!!

arh!
and worse, i'm hanging no whr!
grrrr...

stomach . head ache!

:s

i'm not well.
grr~~

have to pull myself up even more.
since wad is wad already.
other thn believe, it's still believe.
the facts tt it not gonn change!

=)

Hot Dog Bush



Click here to play this game

=)

***blank blank***
my brain is total blank!
grrr.
kinda of dunno why i'm sitting here.
accounting lesson. accounting ut later.
but...
i dunno any single *shit* lar.
grr.

my ut really DIE!!!!
omg.omg.omg.
-banking: D
**shake head**

i really need to work harder and harder!!!
have to!


-------
thanks for letting me know what kind of person you really are.
this is the worse outcome i ever never will tot of.

*it's really not tt you and who and who had being together.
i really dun mind abt it.
but.
wad i really mind is tt lied you had created.
even till now.
i'm glad tt i actually do find out, know abt it.
*shake head*
i really believed in smth called "the kindness person is actually the most evil one!"
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....

hiden post.

=)) =((

boring lesson but i had a funnn class!!!
=)
heart them.
a joke a day brighten my day!

having banking ut!!!
=(((
bad bad bad.
i havent study for it and i cant seems to put all the facts into my mind lar.
is wad the so called "hear go in, there's go out!"
arh!!!
hate ut!
and i guess my banking ut1 die oso le lar. guess i'm one of the 4 pointer!
nt tt gpa 4...
is 4 out of 25????
omg!

=[

arhhhh!
omg...
my stomach hurts. guess is gastric or wad so ever de lar.
i did eat.
is either i ate too much.
or cos i run ard with my dog...
and tt stupid dreamwaver and flash is not helping de lar.
i'm gg crazy le lar.
i cant do the dropdownmenu thingy de.
figuring all day and i do nth lar.
i dun understand!
search online and i still dunno how...
arhhhh!!!!
fyp killing me!

tml having ut!!!!!
=((((

Sun shine Or Sun set?

ain't it beautiful ???
hmmmm...
i saw a big big sun!
and i haven get up on tt DHL balloon yet lar.
grrr...
i wanna be on tt ballon lar!


=)

lalalala.
i see the ferry wheel!!!!
singapore flyer! singapore flyer!
i wanna to be in one of tt cabin!
i actually stay in the library till i can capture the day and night view lar.
grrr.

KATH PRESENT!

wahahaa~
anit it sweet!
i wrap it myself!
tot is so called a last min one as we are too busy to get u a "proper" gift, but i actually had the
inspiration if wrapping it into a handbag lar.
wahaha.
hope she like it!
51/2 hrs more to your birthday!
welcome to the world of 2 yar!
hahha.


---
hmmm..
i dunno.
hah.
hope things will be better.
one day, maybe just one day, the way u look at me will be diff.
i dunno.
-----
it' rather sad/hurt/disappointed when i know tt 'till n0w' the way u look at me it's still 'like tt'. it's not tt u felt i treated u badly, it's... i dunno.
anyway, i'm just lost of words i guess.
hah.
maybe is tt, someone, whom, once close to mi, yet dun understand mi bah.
so...
i..
aiyah!
i dunno lar.
lost of words!.
hahaha.
smile.smile.smile.smile.
----------

=|

I forget everythings.
=)

:(

i'm real dame shock and..
sad.

didnt really expect myself to find tt.
tot my sixth sense tell mi so, long b4.
but, i just dun wan to believe it till i see and know it with my own eyes.
it's really a total mood swing for me for today.
=(

as wad i mention in my earier post, im real bore!
so i actually did smth stupid.
smth tt makes my mouth drop open.
smth tt makes mi cry~
but i just want to know and find out how things are.
i actually went to goggle and did stupid research lar.
and.
yar.
the result was not want i'm looking for and expecting for.
i tot it will be the usual one or some complain tt i will see.
but this time round,
wad i saw really wants to make my tears to brust out.
and of course, i jolly well know tt i cant.
im in school!
tot it's just a few words.
tot thr still isit much evidences.
tot.tot.tot.
but i guess i know wad.
i know.i know.

why didnt they ask how we will.
why is the states still the same.
why is thr a block.
why..
why...
why....

All seems to have an answers for me.

it wun be tt hurt if u tell mi at the start.
it wun be...
it wun be....
rather thn i find out myself.

wad make mi even worse is tt.
it's was a post on 120308...
hah~

at the other point.
it might be just the gal.
but...
i dunn0~

i have being feeling rather gulity. real gulity for the past 2 mths. thinking over over again why things happen out tt way. isit really my fault for not understanding and lisening, not accompany. not...not...not..
i'm just too silly to actually tot tt you still...
we....
i'm just too silly~

the hurt you had done to me is far more thn i tot it will be.
inside. outside. everythings.

end my day fast please.
i wanna go home.

it's weekend.

mood detector: = =) =( =\ =) =(=)

i'm having my mood swing!!!

dame bore lar.
this class is really killing mi.
i didnt real expect banking is sooooo boring.
and i need to take for the whole long year lar.
sianx!

i shouldnt had come today i guess.
not b'cos of tt stupid fyp meeting i wun come lar!
but in the end tt one who suggested it didnt come lor.
so.
we might not need to meet or wad so de lar.
this is s*****!

but anyway. this week, this is the only day i'm in school lar.
tot of giving myself a one week break !!!
hahaha~
but.
too bad.
it's doesnt really goes tt way.

mon: PH -no school!
tue: marketing. -hard= went out. had my first bite of macgriddles burger.* love it* ~nice.
wed: SE_J Cafe " Guardian Health & Beauty Awards function" - tire and envy a couple. hah. one day i will find my des and i will be tt sha lar. tot she's nt a gd gal. i'm nt any better.hahaha.
went hm at 4plus and had a agurment wif dad and thn injured my leg lar. stupid!
thurs: accounting. -too tire and didnt hear the alarm. overslept. rest at hm!
i got D+ for my UT1 lar. shit! got to work harder i guess~ sad
fri: banking. - blogging my way~~~ i'm totally nt in the mood!

hope for a better day!

'o'

i'm awake!!!!
truly awake.
hahaha...
kinda of shock i guess.
interesting happening...
wahahaha!

better save up ar!!!!
hahaha.

@.@

i'm feeling giddy!!!
is my contact or...
i'm too tire!
hahaha.
i'm weak!~~~
no. shld b, i'm old!
hahaha.

i'm kinda of hungry though i add yoshi just now and a pack of crackers.
haha~

nice weekend spend!
=)

-hate fyp!-

0.0

Wahahahaha!!!!
Didn't know thr's really a watch phone lar.
this is dame cool~~
hahaha!


found my tv phone.
but i dunno can trust mah de.
hmmm.
but, of course it's cheap!
lalalala~~~

a dreamy drama

a day at home is all i need.
=)
it's being so long ago tt i slept till 1-2pm lar.
wahahaha.
oppx~ tot is not smth to be proud in.
kekeke. =x

being watching 恶作剧2吻 for the past few days.
yar, i know i know, i'm little slow...
it's rather a "old" drama.
but...
it's real dame nice de lar.
if it's really happen on real life, isn't tt sweet and nice..
``*.*``
wahahaha.
and..
tadah.
i actually saw smth like my dream car de lar.
tot is not tt small and is diff frm wad i saw frm my hse downstairs the other time.
but i felt that this is not too bad too.
wahahaha.
it's just like smth of wad i want.
lalalalala~~~
my dream car!

''''.''.''.''''

i'm early today!!!!
i'm the 3rd in class...
wahahaha.
but~~
this cost me $21.60 lar.
=(
expensive prices to pay.

i'm a happy girl on my birthday! (28.04.08)
how i wish everyday will be my birthday!!!
wahaha~
thx for all the wishes and gift!.
lubbbb them lotx.
=)
--the ballons had run air le-- *=€*

-->bad person.
maybe i'm just so dame bored to concern ppl.
blehx.
whatever. so sad lar. i even tot that he was actually trying to tell mi smth. **eyes roll**

i wanna alot alot of colourful helium balloons!!!!

they are real nice....

**smile**
saw a website that are selling it cheap and the colours are beautiful!!!

wahahha..

(click on image to go to website.)

(click)

still considering shld i get this!!!

since last year???

not too sure wad colour shld i get too...

wahaha~~

but is real tempting de lar.

hmmm...

I wanna....

wahahaa~~~

=((

Fatal accident
One of my hamster pass away yesterday.
When i realized it, it was too late.
Dun really know what’s real happen tot..
Mayb..
It’s my carelessness of closing the lid after changing thr bedding without noticing it was thr.
Kinda of guilty...
But, I dunno…
I didn’t see anything wrong after I close the lid.
kinda of scare too.
to be truth, i dun really dare to go near them le..
it's kinda of give me a ying yin....
arh~~
when they chippp...
i was so scared tt is thr anything happening to them lar.

Hmmm.
Hiax.
Maybe is just like what my kor had say, it’s helping me to dan zai de bah.
These few months is really a happening one…
evey week thr's seem to be "smth".
arh~~~
=(((

I’m sooo tire…
I’m aching here and there lar.
I wanna a massaging chair!!!
Wahahaha!!!!!

raining.

it's gg to pour heavily outside soon...~~

it's really a long day for me.

=(

i hate this stress.
prehaps this is wad people call as stress bah.
i never believe tt thr's stress in life.
but, i guess, i'm defended this time round.
thr's really alot of things happening...

nobody knows.

marketing.

I still dun like fri class.
=(

:(

i'm so tire...
kana scolded by my dad!!!
***sobbb***
haix~~~
i'm just so unlucky lar.
tuppid water bottle.
dunno why will leak de.
the whole bottle is empty lar.
...

unlucky day!

last and the only one tt could not get on to the bus 179.
water bottle leak..
dripping bag.
dripping laptop!
sad!

but, i'm not that unlucky still i guess...
my laptop still can works.
just tt it's screen is very very the dull/black tt i can see...

so tired and sad!

:(

i'm now working in the dark!!!!
Its so unlucky for me lar.
my 2.8 laptop is really dying soon...
the screen now is soooo black tt i hardly can see what i'm doing..
=(
gg dwn to acer center ltr.
dunno how much will it cost mi again...
i'm broke broke....
=(((( *saddd**

project.

I hate FYP!!!!

it's worse when we are lost and our supervior is not helping at all....
we haven meet up with him yet lar!
i guess his just too busy or simply dun bother!
we are just so down on luck that we had him as our supervior ..

missing you even more when i'm down.
i dont like this feeling. =(

-.-

i cannot look back.
i will cry...

PT.

what a rj qns i had...
"what colour best describe your personality? why?"
hmmm.
As i'm just too lazy, i went online to do personality to get a coour for mi.
wahahaha~~
in the end, i was like doing those unrelated de lar.

here's what i had done...


What Planet Are You From?

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

You are a Romantic Realist

Okay, so you fall in the middle. You know that love isn't like a greeting card... Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings. You are the best of both worlds Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious. Almost any guy can find balance with you.

agree??? i dunno...

What Kind of Candy Are You?

Butterfinger

They call you sticky fingers for a reason!

i never ate this before...

What's Your Elf Name?

Your Elf Name Is...

Buddy Sweet Cheeks

What's Your Russian Name?

Your Russian Name Is...

Laryssa Lidochka Kozlov

What Flower Are You?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

i found the type of flowers i might like???

What Donut Are You?

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun. You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life... Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut. To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You Are An Understanding Girlfriend!

You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree

i dun really think so !??

What color describes you best?

Your color is yellow. You are outgoing and very playful. You love to joke around and just have fun. You're also a very good friend, but you may have trouble keeping secrets. Even so, people are magnetized to you. You are so charming and friendly! You have a wonderful smile and you always look on the bright side of life.Good trait: Your undying optimismBad trait: Sometimes you steal the spotlight too much Animal: PuppyQuote: You can never have too much of a good thing!

My RJ. what i almost written in it.

ohhhhh~~~

whooooo~~~~
PINK London cab!!!!!!

saw this cab passing by me when i when eating with my dad at 651.
i didnt know tt's also in PINK!
so sweet and nice!
i wanna to be in there!!!!
wahahaha~~~
--
i still dont mind my husband is a taxi driver.
wahahaha~~~
--

=)

Tiao Tiao (my dog) birthday is coming!!!!!

his one year's old birthday day is on this coming sat 19th april'07
his also an april baby. **gladddd**
anyone wants to give him presents????

hmmm...
**
his toys are getting dirty and spoil...
his teeths are still growing...
wahahahaa~~

saw a few pets cafes..
but they are sooo far...
one is at upper thomson rd, "Earth Cafe" as the reviews/ratings are high.
one is at kovan rd, "Worlds Apart" as their pricing are reasonable or i can say cheap...
wahahaha~
both i dunn0 where! =(
shld i bring him thr???
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smiles aside..
i'm late for school again...

i woke up on time..
reach interchange at 8.10am.
but..
i'm still didnt make it.
the 902 q is soooo long..
i waited like 15mins???
the q tail is equal to the head....
omg!!!
save mi man.
how early must i be???
i cant....

i want to change grp!
i realised my team-mates thinks too much and they dont share or contributes!
they dont discuess and in the end, i was like "discuessing" ard the class lar. =(

• i got a vase, tt pretend she knows alot.
• i got a chi-naa that do her own and dun listen to others.
• i got a guy tt always make my eyes roll, he thinks too much tt kept contradicting himself...doing his own too...

i dont know lar!

i got to focus...
listen to facii and i wun lost and i get to learn...accounting.

my pets! =)

'~'

will i die???

i got a wrong slping posture and my neck is like breaking lar!!

what shld i eat today???






arhhh~~~
i know whr this song coem frm le.
wahahaha
is frm a chinese drama show.
i got this song like one year ago..
frm... yar..
nice, sweet, sad song...

:/

today class: BAD!!!!!

just as what i had expected, i wun like my class.
marketing meant to be a interesting and fun module to learn.
but!!!
my class make it sooo dry and draggy tt i cant stand it at all..
the class mainly is makes up of SHL(sport, health & leisure) students, and i assume that they actually had gone thr marketing in their last two years. As, they somehow seems to know??? whatever....grrr..
knowing jas doesnt help. cos me and her is really really those hardly talk or i can say...we never CHAT before!!
so is still back to the square one. i'm alone, rotting...
worse still,
the team i'm in, can kill mi...
thr's this guy who actually wrote down on the piece of paper and told his friend "a gal next to him" tt mi and jas wasn't doing anything/didnt contribute lar...tt sooooo stupid and jas actually saw it. (mi and jas was in the same team...) tt so stupid of him. didnt he know thr's smth in the world called im! -.-''
is nt tt we dont wants to contribute. it's only the first meeting and we are only ask to do the fmt... which is what we know, what we dont know, what we need to find out. all tt is in the problem statment... so???? it's just a morning... i didnt even know who are you... what more can you expcet??? he's so dominate tt he actually done everything...say everythings... soooooo???? what's left????
But, i cant deny tt all the SHL had the presentation skills..which smth i got to learn from them. the shot'in here and thr in meeting 3 is so active and the facii doesnt seem to be helping lar. so in the end, the lesson just shottt all the way to 4 plus... dame dame boring!!! i was like sitting thr, doing nth...cos i dun see ppl im'in and i cant cos i'm sitting near to tt facii..listening over and over again the same point...draggy~~~
thr goes my friday (weekend) class...
i dun look any forwards to it lar!

today is someone birthday..
hahaha.
we might not know each other...
we didn't even met before lar...
i only saw his photo... like once??
*wahahaha*
But, i know his birth date!!!
wahahaha~~
happy birthday uncle!




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it's so real...
but, i woke up and realised.
it's just a dream..
an another dreams i dreamt of again...
i was happy in it.


sad to say. i remb what i dreamt.
will it still come true???
-------------

weekend come fast please!!!!

lazy.

i'm just so lazy....
it's only the 2nd day of school, but...
my body just ach like helll....
i think i almost spin my right leg. cos it's real pain and thr's a big patch of blue black at my ankle.
it's just those old woman sickness again when night fall ...
my shoulder aches...
b'cos of my 2.8kg laptop...
my eyes bag is heavy...
my whole body achs!!!!
i'm old~~~~

-.-"
my pa cooking really needs to improve!!!!!

=(

i hate dreams.
it's only show how lost i am.
how hurt i am...and how much i'm missing..

you.

tired.

i'm so tired.
had 2 nightmares in the go and my right leg got cramp at the middle of the night. 5 plus in the morning... *=(
i cant slp.

--
had a crapy team today. =)
overall, lesson for banking still works ok for mi now.
cos it's onli the theroy part...
so i still alive.
hahaha.
next week.
next week...

bad school.

it's the first day of school and..
yar.
i'm the latest again. =(
cant imagine, i left hse sooo early but i was still late. and is very late. it took mi abt 2 hrs to reach school. and the worse part is, out of sooo many rps, i'm the only one in my class tt is trap thr. stupid!
not to be bad, i had tot of experiancing it. but.. not today. my first day of year3!
count it on i'm lucky or not?
disruption at cck station towards marina...
landed up in a place whr i'm totally alien to it. buki gombak. follow the crowd, took a bus. saw bus 187 behind. faster alight. cross over waited for another few more mins for tt bus 187, saw meowmeow and her friend at the bus stop. squeeze all the way up from the back door...real like a pancake...all the way to woodland interchange. and the journey is real real long. lucky i didnt took a cab. the q is dame long and it will sure cost mi a bomb. what a morning i had.
great to be in this class. at least i know some of them. i'm nt alone....*wahahaha*. long day of research and research. but in the end, my grp didnt really get to the point or what the problem is really asking. my team is the worst. *sob* guess my grade for the day will be...plus i'm nt NIFM! *downgrade* *sadded*.
anyway, i got a cute classmate..wahaha.
i meant his name. AUNG KO KO WIN...
i dun even know how to pronounce it lar.
wahahahahahaha...
and we actually got the meaning for it. AUNG mean pass KO KO mean boyfriend and WIN mean bright. and he's a guy lar.
wahahahaha
no offensive. =)

***

i still cant imagine i'm having school tml...
i'm feeling nauseous and giddy for the whole day.
grrr...
dunno is i'm having pre-school illness or i'm real...
sick.

i'n not ready for school!!!!
i dont want!!!!!

hate school.

:)

=(

pain pain pain.....

got to enjoy enjoy before my school start.
once it start, i will be busy busy busy......
=(

nice n81 meeting last nigth....
chat caht chat chat....
meet up soon!
=)


will tt restn be a better place???
go see see how it's like first bah.
but the pay is dame attractive lar..

flowers.

tt's wad i got for her.
cindy toh!

happy birthday gal.
hmmm.
didn't get your fav sunflower..
cos tt one nt i give de lar.
ur boyfriend will get it for you!!!

=)

didn't get to see wad kind of flowers i like tot.
hmmmm..
i still dunno which flowers i prefer...

=)

thanks for passing by to read.
not matter who you are.
thanks!


----------
i have start to lift my lazy and stubborn leg out to move the first step.
=)
frm this experience, i got to learn alot. real lots. tot it's nt easy to go thr, but i'm gald tt i had experienced it. i have grow stronger...

just like what you had done very early on...
---------------

张惠妹

如果你也听说

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜半信仰丛白剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作

夜半信仰丛白剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得要无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔
如果你想起我
你会想到什么

...

i'm lost again.
playing with my own thoughts again.
hah.
yar.
我又在撰牛角尖了。
i really dunno.
so i be happy or?
i dun deny, it actually give me a tiny mini hope( =] ), but at the sametime, it's oso add on to tt saddness( =[ )...
cos, somehow i feel that the "concern" he had given to mi is just the feeling of gulitness.


it's seems tt, thr's rather quite a number of times tt i had decided to pull this relationship back. but. he just so simply stop mi to. mi, myself, do actually dun haf the courage to ask him to reconsider. my courage and confidence is actually falling days by days. is thr any more things tt i could say. i dunno. somehow, i just feel tt the more i had said it's just not helping him to understand or so called build his confidence but adding on to his gulitness. he said nth ,done nth.
and even is 'n0 reaction' /feeling to it.
so, i guess, i got/ know the answers.

my lappy is dying...
so dame tiring doing all the defragment and scanning...
it's takes age to finish and the ''viruse'' is still thr...
grrr..
i dun wan to reformat!!!

got to save up...
i wan this....

ASUS EEE.

tt how small it is.

it's sooooo light and small.

portable!!!!!

it even come with a webcam. and it's rather cheap... it's only cost about $600. but, hmmm the space is also small lar.

worth considering....hmmm..

maybe i will do an installment plan???

'-'
thr's so many things i wan to buy...

but..

i dun have money!!!!!

=(

i wan my tv phone.......

gg down to simlin to check the price...

but only once i got my pay...

wahahaha...

cos it's real cheap... ard $250???

hope to look for cheaper one.

$150????

wahahahahaha...

smiles.

nice, sweeeet day.
seeing others joys equal to my joy. =)

happy birthday gal.
tot it's just a very simple gift frm us, i almost see tears in her eyes!
hope you had really enjoy yourselve.
did enjoy myself! =>

my toes hurt.... =(

.

is tt really what i want????

i really dunno.

。

我真得不知道该这么办才好。
我很努了的想放开，可是，我就是做不到。要是我能像你一样的那么轻易的反放掉，那就简单多了。我还以为，放开，对我而言是很简单的事。我一定可以的。可是我万万没想到，伤得那么深的还是自己。要是我放得下，我早就放下了。
我想，我也不想在为难你了吧。我知道除了放开也只有放开了。无论有多不舍也只有这样了吧。我已没有的选择了。只少，你没有了我这个压力，只少，你是开心的，你找到了你想要得。那我也没有什么值格要你留下呢。
没有回答其实就是最好的答案了吧，同时也是最残忍的答案。很想听到你亲自的答案，明知道那不是我想听到的。可是，那也是让我彻底死心，你真得走了，走得远远的。。

我会勇敢。我会坚强。

但不是现在。

if only.

i really don't know...

.

be it or not.
i also don't know what i'm looking for.
afterall, i'm still alone.




---------
glad tt he's enjoying his life.
tt's whr and what he is should be like bah.
back to what he's like..
whether thr's is another or nt.
i dun have a say afterall...
thx for once being thr.
i'm trying to pick myself up.
i have to face it.
--------

OUT.

my classes are out!!!!
hmmm..
all got i know de.

but!!!
the other 2days i dun have any close friends in there... =(
one.. even worse... tt one for one whole sem we didn't tok at all de.
so...
sianx~~~

i know

i know the reason why my back is so itchy already!!!
ch8 tell mi sooo...
wahahhaa

it's pain..
it's empty.
honey corn flakes to full it up..
but i didn't get to find tt..
=(

I KNOW.

new.

i'm a little angle today!!!!

wahahaa~~
i have not being eating much today. or i can say...i never eat..
i only ate a kou ba pa...
wahahaha..
hmmm..
i just not tt hungry tot.

new experiance today.
it's really not as easy as i imgina it to be like.
grrr..
i got to buy a scoop...

i'm trying my very best in picking myself up.
cos i know it's all over...
=)

''

i will be strong.
i'm ok!
=)

maybe it's really me that makes all tt happen...
it's being a week...

.

it's good friday.

'0.0'

i'm awake!!!
yar~~
i can't sleep...
my eyes are wide opening!!!
arh~ i had not being sleeping well this few days...
i can't sleep and .. i'm feeling rather energized ...
wahahaha...

my back itch and i dunno why...grrrr...
and...as usual am tt paranoid, thinking thr's smth bitting mi...
wahahahaa...
or..
maybe is my hair tt's growing longer tt fall and itch mi??? **scratch scratch**

--i'm gg to cut my hair soon!!!!--


---------
thr's smth missing in us.
and ''i guess''...
you dun seems to know wads tt...
while i really hope tt you know and...
i really dunno. is our surrounding that is changing us or, we ourselves are really changing.
i find tt you had change, you find tt i had change. and, hah, we ourselves dun realised tt. ..
hmmm.haix. i really dunno.

what i'm waiting for don't seems to come true...
missing the past...
---------

=)

was chatting to vin just now and..
tadtah..
he show mi this real interesting website tt he had brought for his gf..
here's the link.
nice!!!

http://www.thekiss.co.jp/online/pairring2.htm

feel free to browers ard. cos the things in thr are real real nice!!!!!
=)

~.~

maybe...
perhaps...
i dunno...

ended.

guess, i will never expect you to actually say break up. I had being telling myself, as long as you say break, i will go according to it. cos, tt's also meant tt, i, have no longer any more point of holding on to it. the biggest reason i have hold on till it now is because i know you are really true towards me and give me all the trust and support even though i might be unreasonable at time. you will be still there, loving me, as who i am. the love you had given me, putting me as the top, makes me wonder that if i let go, will i be able to find another one that treat me tt well. since, you no longer so, i had no more reason to hold on to you. it just like holding to an empty shell. without knowing, yar, i had deeply fallen for you though i kept complaining and comparing and even regrated in going in this relationship. if not, i wun be crying now. no doubt, i'm really dissappointed in you. but, does tt really matter now? all my guessing or i can say feeling are right. though you deny it at first. the most aching part is not you dun love me tt much,but, is that, you actually compare the 'give' you had done in the relationship with mine. yar, true, i did complain tt you are not doing enuff. but, i didn't say things like you did not put in the effort. not matter what, i still wear, use them. i didn't comapre with what i had done just for this relationship. maybe to you, the 'giving' i had is not enuff to compare and not even a single sense to you bah. effort??? i guess i really didn't put in tt 'much'. hah. the other heartbreaking things that makes my mind set tt we are never to be again is tt, we had being arguing over and over again the same old point and view. but in the end, you dun seems or yar, you dun get wad i mean. our communication fail. but wad you tell me is, i had change, the trust and understanding in you for me is fail cause i had change. at the same time, do you know that the trust and understanding i had in you is also falling. and everytime, i mes you all those messages are just hoping that we can get a conclusion, a solution to make it better. but however, you don't see it that way. all along, i had being saying, 'complaining' this and tt to you. hoping tt i will get a better you, a better you that will understanding me more. at least the basic of what i like and what i think. And at the sametime, i hope to know you better. what you are really doing. but i guess our understanding really had reach the max. no matter how i explain to you that it fail, hoping to be better, doesn't seems to get a single point over to you.i guess you really dun understand me well enuff. i'm not a gal who will say every single thing out. love, does tt mean i need to put it in my mouth always? trust, do i have to keep saying?whatever it is, it's no longer important. today, yes, today, i will give my best to cried all out. forgetting. the sixth sense in gals, true enuff it's very true. the hug i get from you, the look, the.. feeling. i will be okie. a few more days rest. just give me few more days. i will be okie...

changes in my life again....
hmmm.
good or bad i still have to face it.
=]

...............

=)

walalalala.

my wish come true!

i got this!!!


thx kor for giving mi $150!
thx dear for $90!
and tadah!!!..
i onli paid $100~~~
wahahaha.

love it!
trying to figure how to play tot =s

please leave your message after the tone...

i'm dropping dead once again. hah.
i slept at 4? and i cant pull myself to work [z00]...
and my legs are aching!!!!
the sic is not helping by switching on tt ..phone...
and in the end they will be barking at you for nt calling and informing them.
..dots...
but, anyway.. last nite i did had fun =)

as if u care.

guess u are asleep now le bah.
a few msg a day.
asking the same old things...
"wake up le""whr are u"
in a single day not a single call.
and of course, dun say abt meet up.
just msg mi tt you had being promoted as an asst. manager.
should i be happy or not??
just a simple msg tt wrote. hee happy first Valentine's Day.
Should i be content or not???
dun think u ever remb today is vd till ytd afternoon???
and u expect mi of actually waiting for???
which i can jolly well see tt i wun be enjoying at all. it onli give me a feeling of because it is so,so to do it and not frm the heart. furthermore, will you be able to make it??? with your tt at least 13-14 hours of working hours, i dun think so. hah.
it's really just a waste for my time...

have you ever tot of planning for the day...

our first vd...

even you tell me to wait for u for just a simple dinner at the kopitam, i will still will.

but..

it's all too late.

and i dun see wad a nice dinner it will be at the last min.

what i can see is..

you didn't.

i dun see the sincerity.

what a memorable first vd...

you achieve what you want.

but.

i guess u didn't get my understanding at all....

and of course, literally you are lossing me.

can someone just tell mi.

am i at the wrong..

am i not standing 'close' by him side.

am i asking too much...

or..

i should be more understanding...

support he in his works.

i should had...

i should had....

had i being asking too much or...

had i being not doing enough.

maybe. tt very long ago, i already dun really love u tt much ..maybe tt's the reason why i can't pull thr this with u. i can't understand your work, your every single thing... and not even feelin a single happy tt u are RICH!!!

how can the world be a couple like us that call oursleves couple.hah.

basic understanding and communication is not thr at all.

our minds are not connected. what more about our heart.

while for u. you got what u had. money and state. isn't tt good. hah.

as what i had said . i'm just draging it. keep telling myself yar. he will turn back do a little changes. but too bad. what's gone is gone.everythings just look and sound so diff. when i just know you, the first few months together and coming to a year. it's seems really long and draggy. i didn't really expect things to turn out tt bad for barely a year for us. i just can't really imagine how 2 years, 3 years, or even 50 years ltr will be like.my wonders are not wrg tot. maybe we are not meant to be together at all. it's fading away...i'm envying every single couple tt i know or even those stranger out thr.. but not myself. remb last yr as a outsider or stanger, i actually felt the xin fu from all the ladies i had serve. vd, all gals are xin fu de. while, it's just not for me this time round.hah. one day just one day the drag will worn out..it's when it's stop.everythings will be ok. i will be fine.

.

how i wish thr isn't 14 in this mth....

how long can this still hold and drag.
getting all those things look and feel so ...
wasted...


so how i seems to know what this song meant.