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my blog is dead again..
all my codes are gone..!!!
sadded~!!
i need to re-do every single one. grrr.
just because of my itchy fingers of changing the blog song and in the end all are GONE!!!

whatever~!!! ~!@#$%

ps: boring job. boring work. i wanna go home.

letting go.

guess thats the feeling..

when supposing it should be an aim a dream for "us" but now it became and is completed by "you&her"..

that is when its time to let go..

eveything.. everything..

yo how are you???

letting out my anger...
anyway. just bark off and get yourselves lost in the jungle. you are just like your dad. sorry to say so that way but is you who make it that way. continue to be/acting that big fat nice guy of you. i had really really see through you. im just that jia zhen now or way before now, at the start....
poooo.. i look/sound stupid. as if you ever read..
forget is the only way to forgive. i will. is only that 0.001 left.
cheyyy.

good or bad.

literally, i hurt someone i guess... =/
its wasnt meant to be that way butt butt. with my this 'character' things just goes haywire.. i feel kinda of bad about it.
i'm just sorry.. :|

__but just cant really blame me. i just feel that we are two very different world apart and furthermore i just dont like that kind of feeling whereby you dont have your own stand and idea. asking friends to stand up for you. speaking up for you is not what i like about. cos i know it myself im a 大女人主义者!! i just cant stand.. :s and its just a number (which normally how do one ask for number?? he didnt even take out his phone lar!! or paper?? how should i give man! of course my asking will be wait lar! & we are working!!!.. anyway, it just give me a feeling of 'someone'..i dont mind being FRIEND. but i dont know.. maybe im just think too deep in it. =x i dont want to admit or jump into it. but it just give me that "feeling", that "situation" that i once had.. not mentioning its a good or bad one.__

however i got to say thanks as well. :D
as due to all these teases and fun. jokes and talks, i actually for that moment. that evening, all my worries and sadness fade off, without me ever knowing..maybe that's the reason why i felt so guilty/ bad about it. he's a nice guy..~ =\ anyway, what's gonna happen no one will know. 未来是未知地! be it families or friends.

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h.o.m.e is going haywiress again. hate it to the core~!! ~!@$

thoughts.

arrrrhhhh~!!!
i droppp my phonee twice in a rowwww~!!!!
=((((

gotten give a real good thought of what i really wanna to do.
work or study??
eve will be leaving soon.
jun will be soon leaving too.
both my so called gaki are leaving..
seriously things ain't getting any better.
without any gaki to buck up and "gang" up in this you eat me i eat you environment, i might sooner or later be a new nero pt..
thought i might be quite a loner. buttt buttt..
its saddd.

going back to school choice is only if i had the money..
getting a degree?? which is like whats everyone around me doing..
im not those study hardwork girl type but i guess this is what peer pressure meant. which actually makes me feel like going back. or im somehow sick of ft work job.
i dont know what course to take up.
i dont know what school to attend.
i dont know anything.
i dont have a P.L.A.N..
seriously!
yeahhh i dont have a P.L.A.N.
i dont have a high paid job.
i dont have a good ideal job.
i haven done with my driving lesson.
i haven settle my bills and endless of bills..
i haven go for a holi.
i haven i haven..
and worse i dont have a compatible partner!!!
**goshhhh**
guess i'll be a 败犬 in 10yrs times???
i know i know i know..
im thinking way too far again..
but but..yeahh. time flies.. saw/work elton on sat and without him mentioning, yarr its being 3yrs seen we met. when we (calvin,hs,ron,wq,mid,sharona,des,me) were still in our 10s..LOL.these 3yrs passed real fast. everything seem to be different..or it is different.

anyway!!!!
lets hope and pray real hard~!!!
i will win the 4thnov09 BIG SWEEP~!!!
wahahahaha.
& i dont have to think so much~!
isn't that c.o.o.l!!!!
$.$