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my blog is dead again..
all my codes are gone..!!!
sadded~!!
i need to re-do every single one. grrr.
just because of my itchy fingers of changing the blog song and in the end all are GONE!!!

whatever~!!! ~!@#$%

ps: boring job. boring work. i wanna go home.

letting go.

guess thats the feeling..

when supposing it should be an aim a dream for "us" but now it became and is completed by "you&her"..

that is when its time to let go..

eveything.. everything..

yo how are you???

letting out my anger...
anyway. just bark off and get yourselves lost in the jungle. you are just like your dad. sorry to say so that way but is you who make it that way. continue to be/acting that big fat nice guy of you. i had really really see through you. im just that jia zhen now or way before now, at the start....
poooo.. i look/sound stupid. as if you ever read..
forget is the only way to forgive. i will. is only that 0.001 left.
cheyyy.

good or bad.

literally, i hurt someone i guess... =/
its wasnt meant to be that way butt butt. with my this 'character' things just goes haywire.. i feel kinda of bad about it.
i'm just sorry.. :|

__but just cant really blame me. i just feel that we are two very different world apart and furthermore i just dont like that kind of feeling whereby you dont have your own stand and idea. asking friends to stand up for you. speaking up for you is not what i like about. cos i know it myself im a 大女人主义者!! i just cant stand.. :s and its just a number (which normally how do one ask for number?? he didnt even take out his phone lar!! or paper?? how should i give man! of course my asking will be wait lar! & we are working!!!.. anyway, it just give me a feeling of 'someone'..i dont mind being FRIEND. but i dont know.. maybe im just think too deep in it. =x i dont want to admit or jump into it. but it just give me that "feeling", that "situation" that i once had.. not mentioning its a good or bad one.__

however i got to say thanks as well. :D
as due to all these teases and fun. jokes and talks, i actually for that moment. that evening, all my worries and sadness fade off, without me ever knowing..maybe that's the reason why i felt so guilty/ bad about it. he's a nice guy..~ =\ anyway, what's gonna happen no one will know. 未来是未知地! be it families or friends.

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h.o.m.e is going haywiress again. hate it to the core~!! ~!@$

thoughts.

arrrrhhhh~!!!
i droppp my phonee twice in a rowwww~!!!!
=((((

gotten give a real good thought of what i really wanna to do.
work or study??
eve will be leaving soon.
jun will be soon leaving too.
both my so called gaki are leaving..
seriously things ain't getting any better.
without any gaki to buck up and "gang" up in this you eat me i eat you environment, i might sooner or later be a new nero pt..
thought i might be quite a loner. buttt buttt..
its saddd.

going back to school choice is only if i had the money..
getting a degree?? which is like whats everyone around me doing..
im not those study hardwork girl type but i guess this is what peer pressure meant. which actually makes me feel like going back. or im somehow sick of ft work job.
i dont know what course to take up.
i dont know what school to attend.
i dont know anything.
i dont have a P.L.A.N..
seriously!
yeahhh i dont have a P.L.A.N.
i dont have a high paid job.
i dont have a good ideal job.
i haven done with my driving lesson.
i haven settle my bills and endless of bills..
i haven go for a holi.
i haven i haven..
and worse i dont have a compatible partner!!!
**goshhhh**
guess i'll be a 败犬 in 10yrs times???
i know i know i know..
im thinking way too far again..
but but..yeahh. time flies.. saw/work elton on sat and without him mentioning, yarr its being 3yrs seen we met. when we (calvin,hs,ron,wq,mid,sharona,des,me) were still in our 10s..LOL.these 3yrs passed real fast. everything seem to be different..or it is different.

anyway!!!!
lets hope and pray real hard~!!!
i will win the 4thnov09 BIG SWEEP~!!!
wahahahaha.
& i dont have to think so much~!
isn't that c.o.o.l!!!!
$.$

alone

today's advice "spend your time alone"
=…=" indeed i had...
for dont know what-so-ever reason why, now im actually laying flat on my bed bloggerin where suppose to be enjoyin, k'in & movie'in.. cos I'M ON LEAVE TOMORROW!!!!
butt, sadded to say..im down,with very bad rash on my FACE &.. a sudden bad tummy ach.. all plans have to cancel..rest rest rest..lay lay lay is all i need..

i wanna get my life back.

ps: goin to give my dear bro a good talk tonight...i cant stand it anymore...!!! WAKE UPPP@!

phew~!

hahahahhahaha~!!!
wahahahahahaha~~~~!!!!
its such a relief.!
heehee. xD

hardwork.

coffee is all i need~!
regardless of how bad my caffeine tolerance can be. but i need it~!

being working rather hard these few days or i should use weeks to describe. haaha.
being working working and working.
kor side is no longer as easy as i used to be. different environment different working situation.
& i really hate CHINESE wedding!!!
all the part. the presentation where we got to Q from the shortest to the tallest, holding that BIg first dish to the respective table then to the klap'in and dividing of the foods (which im totally nuts at that) and worst.. the cutting of the fish with just spoon and fork~!!!
omg~!! i just HATE chinese wedding..
please please everyone just goes western...LOL
while..my ta li shi arm strength is no longer there! i cant really hold lots and longg.. =((
i just need more ppl to S.A.V.E me! haahaa.

ft is still as usual complex. more and more hours to be claim.. days of leave waiting for me to take!
anyway..how i wish i got to run pancake clinic everyday!!! hahahahaha~! xD
though he's mood swing come and goes.. guess i really had a huge crush on him??? LOL. he had what im looking for!!! LOL. just that he's too old!!! hmmmmmeeeerrr...
whatever larrr!!!! hahaha.
guess everything going smooth.. just that im too tire to concentrate i guess. keep making mistake that i didnt even realise. hopefully nothing b.i.g gonna happen..haix. so coffee and milo is the magic of my life now~!
how i wish there's a starbuck or coffee bean right outside H. hahahaha. but nope..only my 3in1 waiting for me...anyway..its better than nothing..

got to work tml again..got to log off soon.. im soo into naruto!! hahaha. being watching watching.. two more esps and off to slp~! xD


ps: i didnt know my value at tagger can goes up to 15k plus plus. which i totally hasnt being touching since dunno when..hahaha. (info provided by my kor who wanted to buy me!! hahaha. too bad!)

at this timing???

Peeeek--Boooo..

its being so long since the last time i had blogg.
its either im too busy running about, or im just too lazy to on my lappy.
kinda of lost touch to the Internet world of .com .com .com.
misses my games.
misses my taiwan drama series~!

anyway, everything goes the same.
working sound the same. but i had seems to create a 'hack care' attitude.
i 'cant be bother' much. do whats im suppose to do and THATS it!
hahs. guess thats the only/best way to survival through..
house.
hopefully another luck will happen. cause we just missed one whom it real cheap and worth the price. but not to blame on anyy. its all about FATE!!
one that is really for us will come soon!! =)
the only matter that cause my serious hairs fall is no others but LOH TIAO TIAO.!!!
he's as usual the naughtiest boy~! "or i should say, it getting W.O.R.S.T"!!
save me! guess i really need to get myself a " how to be a successful dog trainer" book to train my loh tiaotiao.
both my kor and i are really lost in teaching him, asking him to do and dont!
he's really driving us nut. moreover, im kinda of busy and tire. yet after a long day back, i need to do this pack that, clear this clean that. its real tiring..
anyway, perhaps or so, guess i should really walk around boarder to get a cheap yet effective dog book. ('~')
moneyy.
i really need to S.A.V.E!!!
i had overspent once again. and today is only the 9th!!! how am i going to survival through till the 25th. =(( *sadded** money money money money... is never enough~!

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guess wonders and questions mark will pops out asking why am i sooo the you kong now in blogs hopping and updating my "untouched" blog. cos im really FREE~~!!! being earning easy money for these few morning! hahaas.
i had to admit, sometime this job is really simple and nice. but sometime, it will just simply make me crazyyy.
thinking back, i had actually wan cheng one of my little ambition of being a clinical assitiant of booking appointment. LOLs. when i was young i do wish to become one whenever i visit the gp doctors. hahaha. see them chopping and writing the appt time and date on the cards look fun and simple to me~! hahaha. * i had actually tried it at home playing!* guess real world is really different from what we see.
hahahas.

ending. photos to be uploaded soon. tons tons of photos to be uploaded. heehee.
time to go poopoo. * ^-' *

im just plain lazyy. =x

save me.

stupid naughty LOH TIAO TIAO~~~~!!!

everythings seems to go on fine fine well..
but expect for stupid naughty LOH TIAO TIAO!
we are really out of no more ideas on how to deal with him~!
save me please!!!!
he actually pee on my HAND!!
omg!!

save me save me.
i really dunno what else can i do to LOH TIAO TIAO!!!

getting abit of tire.
getting abit of sickk..
or no no no!!!
it should be..

I'm REAL tire and sick!

everything around me seems to be driving my crazyyy..
esp when the feeling of telling myslef its NOT thinkany crazyy, its just make me goes crazyyy.

seriously, when is he goanna wake up.
he's just plain, what others say, good-for-nothing.
guess i had really enough of him..
he's just living in his world of,

wake up = wow.
hungry= open mouth for foods.
tired = sleep!
money = reach out from... YAN~!
and the best thing he could ever say: "when i get my pay.. when i start working.. when i.. when i.."

and these just goes for the cycle of all 7days.
how good life can tt be yarr..!

When is that "when I..." going to be???
& of course when will he be awake and realise that things doesnt really goes that way..
what he's being doing really are they 'ALOT' ???

i'm not a money tree..
nor do i earn big bucks.

if you wants to play, please jolly well make sure that you can PAY!
if you are a big eater, please make sure that you have enough cash to eat!

S.T.O.P depending on others!
how old are you??? gosh!

sad to say, what a family i had~!
im real tire!
i know i shouldnt be so bad or saying such bad things.
but the pressure and the tension around is really killing me.
im really trying my best.
but..one day, theres only 24hrs for me..
theres far far too many things for me to do and thinks..
i just really need a space of my own.
do and buy things for just the god sick of a 21 should be..
do i ever had the time to envy??
bad life..
& working for the sick of money is not any helping at all..

thanks girl~! ANG RUIYAN
=)))

really appericate it lots lots lots.
a phone call from me.
but many calls from her to others.

thanks my friend~


light shining down my path~!

black clouds over me

tire.
space.
moody.

understanding.
support.
shoulder.

tick tekk.

once again its another week~!
too much to consider too much to think.
hope time will move alittle slower..
26hrs is all i ask for???

its goanna be another hard week..
busy busy busy~!!!

theres still one whole load of list of shows for me to watch!!!
LOL.
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I hate my job!!
=((
i hate the feeling of ""opps did i done something wrg???"" ""i think i did something wrg""
its not a place where mistake can be make!
sometime or most of the time, i just hope that i can do things sharp sharp chop chop..
for the very first time i know its stressful.
i can feel the stress.
the internal people can really kills. moreover some are your friends..
what more can i say..

maybe i just dont suit the place..
i dont really like the situation that i in now.
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believe i can..

25th is finally here.. yet i think i spend quite a lump sum of it..awaiting for the next 25th. =x

being rather a busy week...working still wasnt as smooth..things will get better i hope..
being spending quite alot on cab fare..
being staying late at work and no much ot can be claim...
plus plus..i got to give myself more courage and push push push!!!
i must know i can!!!

running mo ALONE tml!!!!!
though its not the first time..
but but. guess is the official time that im gg to run clinic ALONE!!!
to be frank im kinda of scare..please please dun book soo soo many test!!!
**pray hard**

working life are just too complicated at time that are hard to understand!~
im bless to have these 2 to help mi out..deeply appericate.. =)) roses and junjun.

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brought tiao to do his deworm thingy. and tt mark the first time of me bringing pet to a vet. but i guess im still kinda of cheated~! =(
cos the deworming is not a jab but is a tablet which only cost a few dollar... while is the consultation tt goes whaooo..and i got nth to ask as tiao was pretty healthy!! lol..
anyway a nice outing and experiance.

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ps:finally i brought my new phone!!! whoohooo~!!!
after much consideration and thought, i brought the same phone as kor. samsung jet. hope it can really last long..LOLx.

cant think of a title.

PHEW~!! its just a 虚惊一场!!!

i was seriously worried to the core..
anyway last week wasnt a good week at all!!!!
saddddd. =((
is a week full of down down down and no up up up at all.
but at least i find a way to distress~! hah.
ps to whom-ever: sorry for not understanding. i finally know why & how the feeling is..cos tt what im doing now. which i always disapprove in the past.
but but i know it will fire up my wallet.. hahahaha.
2 big bags of sweets are still waiting for me to finish up!
:O

one more day to weekend.
one more week to full my wallet~!

9days.

its being a busy and fulfilling days that i for the past 9days.

guess it started of with fri 29-05-09.
a planning with cin to get and prepare the big gift for our dear friend weiwei.
after much thought, we finally come to a conclusion of getting her a diy hamper.
late night shopping at ntuc fairprice is always nice. =)
late night heart to heart chat wasnt that bad.
and of course we saw someonesss whom we or i never never never expect will see.
LOL.
its being soo0o0o long ago that we saw them & they are still the usual them nothing big changes i guess. haha.
didnt expect that we spend the whole night there and we could actually see the dawn breaking out...
but i had to say.. she's really thinking too much~
things wasnt as bad and negative as it is...
everything will be better. =)







the diy hamper hope that wei like it. =)

30-05-09. pasir ris chalet.

i'm seriously lack of sleep~!
woke up early by my pa for going lunch with him..
but he does aware that i was home only this morning 6am!!
LOL.

not forgetting..

& a call that make my day or the rest of the week smile smile smile!

yuppii.

im attending the orientation which mean i dun have to...

yar!!!

anyway.. meet up with cin to go over to the chalet/party that wei had held for her big 2!
the cab fare is really really very very EX!!
something which i never expect it to be...though its frm the head to the toe kinda of thing..
thanks for having games to cure our bore. thanks for the foods that taste not too bad. & hope u have a fun & nice day!






Happppi birthday girl!
the cake taste real nice! xD


03-06-09
timbre dinner gathering!
i have being caving to go over as i had heard sooo0o many nice review/ words of mouth of it.
but i was rather alittle disappointed! =(
guess maybe it was a wed night?
nevertheless, the pizza thr taste nice nice nice. esp the duck yar.. pizza.
LOL.



guess its oso meant to be a farewell gathering for ron..
he will enlisted to army on fri!
so fast.. this big guy here is gg in to army!!!
take care!

we will miss you???

LOL.

when over to a ktv pub, beer belly for the second round...

wasnt really in the mood due to tiredness i guess.

and i have to admit that its not a place that i will like to sing out loud de lar!!!

so paiseh lar..but i know i have to..yar~!

anyway... nth much to blah blah blah about.

saw 2 yan dao guys that make the trip alittle more exciting for mi and jo i guess!!!

LOL.

xD

06&07-06-09

home ground girl.

its being rather a long week for me~!

being going home late, sleeping late.

if is not meet up with friends, i will be actually shopping with phine or eve...

i need my bed. i need my dreamland! LOL.

i must really give myself a pat at my shoulder!

i actually attend all my 5 days of work but i spend abt $50 (2days) on cab fare to work! lol.

06-06-09

kor finally make his hainaness chicken rice!

hahaha.

it taste wasnt tt bad lar.

just that it a little too saltyy..

:)

07-06-09

finally i manage and 'dare' to try out this gift that my dear gals had give me!~

LOL.

its actually very easy to use and not as complicated as i though it will be..

hahaha.

pic 1: popping out.. im actually quite a distance frm it... =x

pic 2: popping done!

it actually taste not too bad with honey and salt! :)

thanks gal.. maybe one day i will pop some for u guys to enjoy too!

hahaha.

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orientation this coming week again!!!

whoohooo~!!!

and fri, im working with rose and assisting...ahemm.

guess it will be a nice week!

LOL.

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斗鱼 is love and nice!!!

im so great that i manage to buy the $12 dvd!

it really worth the price and i actually brought the second volume too.

finish watching the first volume by a week and the ending is soo0o0o sad.. =((

a ending that i never expect of!

于浩 is so 帅 !!! *blink blink*

catching the second volume now and its also very nice...:))

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cute cute.

he simply look like a toy~!

LOL.

happening around.

started my first full time job for almost 3weeks...

things getting better..

but, im still kinda of afraid alone esp with all the scanning and test needed to be book and done..

days can gets nothing better thn...

working with ahem and ahem doctors~~!!!

just like todays afternoon session..! *-*

whoohoo.

xD

one of the best experience i got to learn will be knowing all the medi and the different procedure is for what purpose/help.

& not forgetting the best exp will be...

im able to see how dressing its done.

whoo. though i know it can be kinda of gross.

but its "whao0o0o". =0

last but not least..

i got to measure my bp everyday.

**lame** heehee.

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Dr Raymond Wong

the first doc tt i help to assist. or to be more precise, doc assistance assistance.

LOL.

rose was a real nice mentor/senior!

she's the best man~!

she teach/guide & tells me whatever she knows.

she help mi in anyway she can till today..e.g. the sap dropdown list.

lub working with her. =)

she's just simply nice nice & nice.

appreciate lots lots.

Dr vitaly.

dont u think its such a cute name. =x

anyway its not a bad doc. =))

i guess.. actually dont really remb much. except for the..

"thrs she goes again~!"

haha...

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news update!
sing got the first h1n1 pt!!!!

& she's in nuh!!!

ohhnooo!
will i die???

hopefully & guess i will not be affected. we are real farrrr..???

anyway jiayou jiayou towards ur recovery.

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Random Photos.

--weekend @home.---

tiao watching the kimshanshun "cabbage head" drama series with me...

--Driving @ bbdc--

my first ever training car! 145.

one of the session.

--Nuhs @ cardiac center/H--

first day at work..

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phew~!

for the time being i got to tahan~!!!

for the sick of the money.

for the sick of the cpf.

driving getting harder and harder.

lesser and lesser slots for me to book as well.

i need to maintain 2 per week.

=((

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falling sick soon..

complexion getting worse day by day with..

everyday makeup and less SLEEP!!

i miss my long long lala land!

i still have the urge to take MC!!!

but nope nope nope nope....!

**shake head**

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got myself a job.
saw old friends.
met new friends.

at the sametime.
new problem and stress pop out for me to think even harder..

cross our fingers hard and pray hard.
hope things will turn out better.
killing all the sell fish people.!

fate of tiao and I.
i need more space and brain cell to think..

new things new experience

i got my NEW spec!
=))

when for my first practical lesson!
:s :s

i wasnt really prepare to drive the car!
i was ask to turn right and right and right..
at first it was okie..
but toward the end.. i dunno what happen!
almost fail i guess. =x

but seriously.. i dun really understand what the instructor was talking about. LOL.
i was just turning/moving with my feeling~~..

lots of update. lack of time!

happy ending coming to an end soon~~~~!!
im starting work on 11may09 at nuh cardiac clinic.. =(

love.

hasnt online for quite sometimes.
lots more to update.
connection down and due to the wind...i will go on and offline!



honey ice lemon tea was NICE!
though kor said tt thrs no such thing.. hmm.

honey is gonna to finish up!
the honey was suppose to make popcorn!
but i guess im gonna drink all up soon. LOL.

hongkie drama time!
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