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foryourowngood.

it's raining outside ...***again***

just wondering is RP a big big big huge huge fridge..
``hah``

feeling so sleepy....
there's ut still...
and after tt still have to rush over to work...
`sick--
better be a busy day...
or ...
mayb..
though...
it is...
but....
i'm not!!!!

``hah```
shld i laugh or cry????

thought that actually i could had early sleep last night cos i know that i will be having a long long day for the next few days...
but too bad...
i can't really sleep and when i fall asleep, i was woke up by....
yar!!!!

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it's not that i disagree in lettting you go...
cos' i understand that ...
as mi, myself will like to go out wif my friend...
but i was just requesting to go home early ...
if..
if....
you are feeling that fantastic well...
i wun mind and care what time you will be home or whr and what you will be having...
cos i noe that you will be fine...
but..
but...
you are not....
in that case....
thn stop complaining that you are not feeling well...

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--i wish to have more personal space!!!--
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as what i had type in my msg..
pls...
pls....
stop coming over to my hse..
is not as if that you dun haf or so...
i just dun understand...
7days a week...
how many days you are at home????
do i have to keep repeating it to you...
i'm really tire of it.
telling you, explaining it to you...
jsut dun help.
in that case..
do i really had to do till the extend of stopping you frm coming my hse...
not even a single day...
??????

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Buangkok and Jurong is very very the far...
is the thinking as far as?????

it's raining outside...

omg!!!
it's freezing down here...
---it's just like i'm "holiday'in" in POLAND.....----
tupid mi that i forgotten to bring my jacket along today..
****sianx****


connection is down again...
i can't do much research...
i only had that pathetic 3 pages of researches that i had found early on....
and tt's 3 dun really helps much!!!!!

****sobbbb****

but it's just kind of interesting...
i could log in to blogger and post...
i could vist the spree wedsite...
--`````though it's very slow```-----
i could still log in to msn live....
but....
but......
but........
i just can't do my research!!!!!


energy level: ***

went to watch 'vacancy ' last night....
grrrrr.......
freak movie that scares mi off at time....
but overall hokie lar...
at least it doesn't makes mi fall aslp...

kind of disappoint...
somehow....
***sad***
think cathay are really cutting down cost..
lesser and lesser midnight movies are showing.....
i want to watch ALONE.....

hmmmm...
perhaps...
another bah!


seriously speaking...
i need to find something to do now!!!!!!!


--^^--
***a cup of hot nutty cafe latte warm me up!!!!***
```keke```





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i'm a good girl!!!!

woke up early today as my dearest ah pa had wakes mi up....grrrr...
once the clock strike 7am, he will be knocking the door, pulling my legs to wake me up. grrr..As he said that i ..."YOU BETTER GO TO SCHOOL AND NOT BE LATE!!!!" so he will make an effort of making sure that i won't overslept and tahda...i will be at home... kekekeke...

but in the end, i was late still.. as due to my moring dilly dally..hahahahaha....***evil****
even so, i was only late for 1 minutes...
wahahahha...
a good improvement then...
hahahahha

java lesson..
hmmmm....rather a slack one. with martin...everything ok de lar!!!
hahahahaha....
6p showing now...
but..
kekeke..
me blogging here... tml ... will be ut again..and...this time round will be java java java...
hiax..
i don't seems to understand!!!!

dun really feel like coming to school tml.
if not of the ut, i wun be coming...
cos it will be that stupid auntie lesson...
she ..
she.....
she........
too much .....

wtf...

for my 1st time in my rp life that i got a D !!!!

****sad

i did do my rj and contribute...
but.....
hiax...
a**

just wondering... when i grow old vone day, will i be like one of those auntie(s)?????? -_'





pray hard for things to get better...

the distance between the heart and the brain...

how i wish the distance are just 0.00000001 cm away....
at least i know what to do....
what i want...

cont. or not..
i don't know....

cont. smth seems to be not right...
not..
i dun bear to....
dun wish to........



i seems to have hurt another innocent one!

***^

pardon mi for not understanding..
i just need sometime to think abt it..
it's just piss me off so badly..
Initially thought that it will be better...
but...
but.....
i just can't...
to the extend that i dun even feel like talking or thinking..
as it only burn me to the core...
i hate it!

dun tell mi i'm thinking too much....
it's only an excuses to avoid...

to mi, i just feel that smth is nt so right inbetween us and it's not i tot it will be like````
personility ???
maybe it's just like A and Z...
it might be near ...
it might be far....

......

a post of yesterday..

It’s so dame meaningless, somehow or so, I just don’t belongs there...
Things are not getting any better.

Tolerance…

It’s really got too much when insult became backstab.
I was furious…
I was irritated…
The war seems to start.

What so good about gaining things which are so unreal.
Sometime people are just so realistic that they, themselves does not realize it. Of course, I can’t deny that I, maybe, sometime might be one of them too. Two more weeks, Or perhaps one… just like the start, when I had given myself one week to decide to stay or to leave.
I just totally blow up yesterday… I just can’t stand him any more… for that week, I didn’t really say much…what you want..i give…though it’s not willing…my smiles are fake…my heart had fade…but don’t force me to blow up.


Which should I choose, understanding or what I perceive???
How I wish….

Remain silent doesn’t mean that it’s wrong…
But somehow or so, I see a two side thingy…
The front and the back…
Forget it!!!
Disappointed…

tuppid..

hate working!!!!
with a new manger here is not helping at all.. got to find a new job soon...
so sick and tire of everythings..

miandhim..

still feel that we had a communication break down..
somehow or so, i hate to talk to him...
he just seems to be rumping and rumping ard the clock...
somehow or so it even seems to be exaggerating...
talking to him makes mi feel so...hmmm..just not so right..
sorry i had to say that, perhaps , he gave me a feeling that he is always right...
hiax... but, i can't blame him as well... thinking back, it might be the "heads" are giving him too much pressures that somehow he's tt way whr he, himself doesn't know about it.
missingthe day whr he is just a part timer....

i don't know what I really want!!!!

Not in any good mood!!!!!

Things doesn't seems to goes any better...
tml is another ut...worse, it's talking about all thoses IP thingys and changing this and that... haix...total boring~~~ IT???? an alien to me I think..`hah` what's what's...

Forget it...

Don't seems to help any too....
It's really must well I learn it on my very own`hah`...
What I want it's not that...
aiya...
just not in the mood anymore....

***pissOff***

school

It's seems so long ago that I had last step into the class for lesson. Giving myself for breaks every weeks and only attending 3 lessons per week is not going any good to me. All this must come to a ....

STOP!!!!!!

Me, Venesa Loh, HAVE to....

wakes up early ...

pay attention in class ...

speak up more in class ...

stop giving myself excuess ...

have to...

have to.....

have to........

alot alot alot .........

I'm feeling so tire and bore. Is not that I don't want to...
but all these are all so bore and me here dun seems to know any single bits of it.. what IP address, what's what's ....
all seems so alien to me!!!!

HOLD ON!!!!

I have to.......

**grummmmm**

pushing all this back...

have a sweet sweet morning....

Appreciate lot!!!!

Daddy woke up to wakes me up, tuppid uncle didn't slp just to ensure that i wakes up and go to school on time...he even makes his way all the way down to pei me go school...hahahahaha...soooo nice of him...but his still soooo RUbbish !!! ```hahahaha``` why didn't he go to sleep leh..still bluff me what what ...that kuku me still believe that he's still on his bed and waking up soon..... ARH!!!!!!
'hah'

anyway nice nice and that 'bian' ' bian' bread taste still nice nice de lar...

hahaahahaha...

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got to get back on work le...

happiness doesn't last long you see.....

get back to my alien world!!!!

```save me````

--Smile--

It's so nice having him around with me...

Though he might get on my nervex at time and makes me real frustrated and irritated. `hah`
***head shaking***

But...
It's just so nice....
Thanks being there...
Though you might not know why I felt so sad a minutes ago..
Of course not because I had ate too much or too full or the foods you had order too much that makes me sad'ed' it just tt...
just so happen I somehow or so, found out smth...
Anyway, it's over!!! `keke`

0o0oo0o

SHE new album is coming SOON....
***keke***
---Looking Forward---

**^-^**
o0o0o00o

0o0oo0o

For the million sake...
STOP buying and wasting money on sOoooo many many foods de....
The size of my stomach is very very very very very SMALL......
***eyes rollx****

0o0o0oo

0o0oo0o

SHE:五月天


***^-^*** x 1ooooooooo....

like' it lotx lotx de... The melody just sound so sweet and ...hmmm...comfortable ba..`hah`..

ps:
Arh Xin was in this MV wor...

--Enjoy--
0o0o0o0o

o0oo0o

ohya...it's mother's day today...
wishing all mothers' in the world 'Happy Ma Ma Day'
`keke`
Brought my ma a slow cooker and so was so overjoy...
--hahahaha--

^since I saw my mama wore a orange shirt today, the fonts wil be in orange then...keke^

0o0o0o

0o0oo0o

11---> there will be smth coming up...

***kekekekeke***

0o0o0o

---didn't get to complete...---

That's what I actually intend to post on 30thApril'07 -12:34am

Too bad....

I didn't have the time to complete it...

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lalalalala...

i'm 19 !!!

***-_-****

another words, am old old old old.......



``hah``



though this year celebration was simple but, i really really do enjoy lotx lotx de....



``kekeke``



+++thanks for all the present and the time you guys had spent on mi+++

+++makes mi feel just like a small little spoil girl de... **keke**+++



thurs 260407



an early celebration with the girls de....

went over to jurong east k-box....it's real dame long that i had last steps into it yea...hahaha...big big hugxxx to all my gal gal friendx de wor....cos i really did enjoy myself de...while...kekeke...thx cin, jo, tiff and zy for tt dior prefume de.... like it much much it....wahahahahaa....sure will used it when we go out de...hahahahahahahaha...



photos:



oOomi 'zhi pai'in using my phone :sad:onli:manage to took one ''better'' de...o0o








o0ojo checking the mike b4 she sings...0o0


0o0here's she goes...o0o


o0ohmmm...they seems to realise tt ''flying" object le...**keke**o0o


0o0engross in singing...lalala....**keke**0o0

welcome year 2!!!!!!

holiday ending soon....
i'm only left with a day. this holi...hmmm...didn't get much rest... happen sooo many things that somehow i feel tt without holi wun it be better???? hmm..anyway. forget it ba... wad has being done cannt be undone...wad's wad's just let it be ba.. somehow i just feel tt my blod looks so dull de... mayb for the past few mths, i didn't feel tt "bright" ba...hahaha.... anyway...school reopening... my year2 is here.... got to meet new people again and learn new new things. hopefully everything will be fine nad goes well ba... hmmm...angie is in the same class as mi...**phew** at least i got to know one single people in the class tt i wun feel so "alone" ...hahaha...

i want to shop.... holiday seems to be soooo short... shock to say tt in this holiday, i didn't get to shop much or get to buy lots of things de... i'm short of clothes!!!!!!!

**o0o0o**
working thr will born to have stress... i truly and do believe tt if you could overcome and endure thr, u will sure success and climb a step higher...but, if u cant handle it any longer.. look for another position might nt be a bad things too...anyway, i dun blame you of wad u did last night...i dun support it but..since you feel tt it is the best way to destress it, why not thn... in short, whatever decision you made, i will be thr supporting you.... and tt's for sure!!!!! hahahaha... dun think too much and smile!!!!

```planx~`

hmmmm...
money is never ever enuff!!!!! stress!!! seeing him somehow so stress or so de, i feel rather gulity and stress de.. feel really gulity of spending his money as well as.... i want to help him... but....hiax~~~~ i can't... cos am also a limited company.....

got to think of way to save up...

hmmm..
can de...

a selfish mi ....

it's being so long tt i have last online. many many many had seems to happen....bad or good???? i dunno... somehow or so, i just felt rather bad .... no matter towards who... i'm just so imprefect...hate myself of being sooo imprefect de... which ya... i know tt no one is ever prefect de... but i just hate myself of having sooo many many loops holes de.... how i wish i can do better....

anyway, 9 days le....actually is more thn 9 la... but let take it as 9 ba..hahahaha....hopefully i didn't make the wrg move or choice de... but .. i still seems to be very very worry de...dunno why....

arhggggggg.........

school starting very very sooonnn..... last thn a mth i will haf to wakes up at 6.45 , carry my stupid heavy heavy lappy and...ya here i goes with all the research and presentation again....sad!!!! hw i wish the holi are longer..... i haf nt play any enuff ....

miss all my friend friend de.... it's being so long ago tt we last see or chat de.... wondering am i being miss de ma????

xxxbashxxxxx

goin to look for a nice blog skin to change.... somehow or so de... i dun like my current blogskin le...hahaha...mayb i'm sick of looking at it le ba...hahaha...

millions millions millions millions thousand thousand thousand thousand

Sorry!!!!!!

ps:
i seems to haf owe alot alot alot.......

Relieve.....

clear 1...

clear 2...

hmmm...

got to pick up my courage to clear all...

i dun my life to be soooo in a mess de...

i dun think i can slp well ba...

haha...

Avoiding is nt an answer to it...

it's a kind of responsibility .....

ps:

clear 1:

hmm..

clear 2:

Results are finally out... but nt too sure is the finalize grades...but... i'm satisfied with it as it's better thn wad i tot it will be de..

hahaha

~~``haix``~~~

smth bothering mi....
or shld i say...
there's million of them....

-->
唐禹哲- 最愛還是你

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hmmm...
so he got sing de wor...
keke

.....

i think i shld be working..
at least i wun be thinking tt much...

had being working the past few days...
this week rather a happening week for mi as i can...haha...```happening``
got to learn quite a few things...having supper as well...hah..fei fei company wun close down sooo soon le wor...hahha...ohya....hmmm..lao pa sa the foods somehow nt really reccomended....ok la...so so lo..


```dunno```
which steps shld i go....if tt very next day u did say smth to mi, i might already see whr to head to ...i did waited and was looking for smth...but......dunno.........though somehow or so de..i do understand and can feel tt...but...but...but...thr's still but....actually i felt rather guilty and i seems tt i had hurt you....i seems to had started all this...but ...but ...right now i'm just like stuck in the middle..dunno whether to re-drew or to move on...futhermore, thr's...hmmm...ya...i dunno la.....whenever i seems to have make a stand, the very next moment i'm doubting myself abt it....mayb i'm just nt ready for it....or.... i dunno...somehow i just feel very bad and i seems to had became one of those mean gal....
have tt knock on the door missed??